Fly An Innocent Life

Whheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

2006-12-22T21:56:00.000Z

YAY!! I got an offer from Hull today!!!!!! Hull is the only one that i actually care about...so ive been waiting and waiting every day for them to reply. and i got an offer!!! it sounds totally amazing, in my letter Dr. Andrews said that i would really enjoy the module on sharks and that i can do a project on the Sand Tiger Sharks at The Deep!!!

also he said that for my field study i can go to: the red sea (!!!!!), malawi, tobago or spain!!!!! omg! and the diving corse is free as its one of the options you choose!!! mwuahahahaha!!! i cant wait, im sooooo excited!!! arg!!!

just waiting for bristol to reply...ive had offers from all the others...leiscester, kingston, sheffield and UEA. but who cares coz hull offered me a place!!!

yeah!!...erm cant think of a pic to go with this blog...so..just imagine me jumping around!!

Score!!!!

2006-12-17T18:34:00.000Z

SCORE! WHOOOOOOO!!! Oh yeah!!! Joel broke up with Hilary!! haha!! when i found out i was so happy i laughed solidly for an hour! its no that i dont like duff...its just i dispise her. hopefully now Joel will marry me! or failing that, at least find someone that has a higher IQ than that brick.

i dont wanna spoil this fantastic news with anything else...so ill levae it with a couple of my many fav Joel pics :)

tehe i love it when he smiles *swoon*

"Wolf At The Door" (Keane)

2006-12-10T12:36:00.000Z

Yeah im seeing Keane again!!! Whoo!! February 28th, Wembley Arean!! Score!!

This week...wait month has been soooo crappy. And just as you think its getting better it gets worse! Grrr!!

So first thing, i waited all morning to book my Keane tickets...they went on pre-sale to the Keanies on the website. Unfortunately rang n' bone, the company that sells the Keane tickets, didn't learn from every other pre-sale theyve done...and the website went down within 5 seconds of the pre-sale opening. It took half an hour to even get into the shop, then when i clicked on the venue and number of tickets....it just went blank. So another 10 minutes getting there again, just relaoding the same blank page again and again and again and again and again!!.eventually it works..but the page refreshes itself and sends the order twice. So i now have 4 tickets instead of 2. You cant just remove the tickets you dont want, you have to remove all of them abd start all over again!!!

so an hour later and this happening 3 times i finally order just 2 tickets and my details go through. Phew. But it didnt end. My confirmation page said:

Date: Venue number of tickets price total

Thursday ( ) ( ) ( ) ( )
1st Janury 1970

1970!!! WTF??? i hoped that this was just a mistake on the page...wouldnt be unlikey after all that. But my email said exactly the same thing. I instantly emailed them and said i understood that they were getting loads of complaints about the service, but i really really needed a reply within 2 days, before the tickets go on general sale. If i didnt actually have tickets and they didnt reply before then, thered be no chance of me getting any.

They didnt email back until 4 days later. They said my payment had been received but no tickets had been allocated. (bastards). They then said that unless i wanted a refund, they would allocate me the tickets i thought i had ordered. I did consider asking for sitting...but if its just the reserved spares they have theyd be awful seats! So i asked for standing.

Okay...so i might have them.....they still havent emailed me with confirmation, so if not ill sue them for mental damage or summit!!

So next, i get another throat infection. Yes!! i havent had one thi year yet, so i have been way overdue!! no doubt brought on by me and Sam breaking up. And because of the infection, i got 3 mouth ulcers with it...so i didnt eat much last week. The food had to really be worth it, i couldnt even eat my steak pie coz my mouth was so painful...then trying to swallow anything. Arg!!

Monday i burnt my hand trying to get my pizza out of the oven. It started off just red and a bit mean looking, but soon started to blister. Takes a looksie:

that day i went to watch Kuk Sool, coz i had only just got my throat infection. Then outside, i managed to fall over and cut my knee open...it bled sooo much, it doesnt look too bad, but in really life it was actually quite painful

then, thursday i had booked off work, so i went late night shopping with Hope, Jake and Sam....and fell over again and landed exactly the same way. That reopened my wound and it went all gunky:

Yum!!!

Last night me, Sam, Geri, Nath, Jimi and hope went back to G's after going into town. Sam and nath decided to pile ontop of me and then nath was tyring to stick his finger in my ear!! arg, so i went a little spas. Nath was holding onto my hand and managed to pop the juicy blister that, by now, was all the way across. And it hurt soooo much. So much more than when i actually did it. So i went to wash it was was just in agony. And this morning its all dried out, but i keep catching the skin on everything, which hurts just as much lol!!

how weird is the skin from middle downwards!! its all wrinkled and crispy. Ew!!

and finally... im home today instead of going to work because my mum is ill. She was up all night vomiting and shes not that much better today. Dads at work so i really didnt want her to be on her own. Trouble is im getting really uneasy coz, as worried as am i about her, im stuffed now!
If its the chinese we had last night...it means im gonna get ill too coz we had the same thing. It just hit her quicker than me. However, she went out for a meal the night before so it could be that as it fits the time-scale that food poisening takes to have affect.

But if its a bug...im most likely gonna get it from looking after her. So im kinda just sitting here getting more and more nervous. If was the chinese ill start getting ill tonight, and its just so horrible waiting to get ill. And im petrified of throwing up, so food poisening is always fun for me! Ive had it twice in that past few years. Last time i got so distressed i was tyring to convince mum to hit me to knock me out lol!! oh god i dont wanna get ill!!! arg!!
if its a bug i have more of a chance of just feeling unwell, but not actually being sick coz i have a really strong stomach. I get that from dad.

I feel so bad for mum, i just dont no what im supposed to do. I keep going in to check on her, and i stroke her hair for a bit until she falls asleep again. But other than that i just feel totally useless!

Anyways, thats all...so i guess ill let u no how it all goes. Wish me luck!!!

"A Bad Dream"

2006-11-21T09:22:00.000Z

Shit.

Well, good news-bad news...

Bad News: Sam broke up with me. after kuk sool...so yes everyone at kuk sool saw me run back inside crying! balls! i hate crying in front of people. Why did i tempt fate? the other day i was talking to sarah saying how in love with him i am..."i havent been this happy for ages. if fact, if he asked me tomorro i would marry him" ...idiot! im so stupid. fuck this hurts.

good news: I'm going to see Keane again!!! YAY!! they've released new arena (ooooo) tour dates for february! they go on sale to Keanies (like me) tomorro at 10am...and other people on friday. Im booking wembley ones for me and meg. yay!! they havent done big arenas before so its gonna be awesome! tho i think Tom will be very nervous!!

so yeah...im gonna go now and eat some more choc and put Keane on xx

KEANE DAY!!!!

2006-11-19T21:33:00.000Z

OMG OMG OMG OMG where do I start???? It was sodding awesome!!

I barely got any sleep, I kept getting butterflies. I ended getting up at about 6am and just watching tv and slowly doing my makeup. Meg got to the house at half 8 and we left before 9. the journey was good actually….went quicker than I thought it would seen as I was soooo excited. Poor meg!! I must have been a nightmare! We got to the right part of London and started following the signs for ally pally…but then the parents decided to stop at a mall to go to the toilet…which took forever!!!

Then we found it…its sooooo big. We were queuing outside by 1…and there were already bout 10 ppl there before us. jammy buggers that live in London I bet!! Anyways it was freezing cold…and then it began to rain! Typical England!! So I played Keane songs on my phone to cheer everyone up…and we had a mini sing-song (me singing loudly and other people humming lol) still, I had fun dancing round like a plum!

Anyways…it got colder and colder, more and more people started showing up and we watched the men put out the barriers, which we then had to re-queue into…luckily Keane fans are very polite and we all got back into the same order…then again id like to see someone try to push in front of me mwuahahahaha!!

We got let in about 6.15 and me and meg pegged it thro the palace and into the huge arena hall bit….the stage was all the way at the other end! We managed to get to the front J he first support act was a guy called John Rodderick….he was great. It was just him and his guitar, but amazing voice, really enjoyed him. The second act were…shit what’s they’re name?? arg they’re in the charts now…they did “it’s a glor-or-or-orious town, it’s a glor-orious town”….captain! that’s it. Yeah they were good…but the songs all merged and sounded like one huge long song to me!!

And then we were in the annoying waiting gap in between the bands…it always takes forever. A Spanish/Italian lady next to me asked if her sister could come and stand next to her (closer to the stage)….as if! Do u honestly think after almost 6 hours of queuing I would let some foreign lady who’d only been queuing for an hour probably push in next to me! A poor girl behind us had said yes…and instead of ‘her sister’ 3 of them came and stood in front of her…and they were tall, fat and smelly!! Bastards!

Anyways…it got to 4 minutes before they were due on and I said to meg “arg we still have 4 minutes…and then they’ll make us wait another 5 to get us going….” At which point Tim ran on stage and started playing “The Iron Sea” (and instrumental)….yeah, eat your words me! Half way through Rich and Tom came on too.

Set list:
The Iron Sea
Put It Behind You
Everybody’s Changing
Leaving So Soon
We Might As Well Be Strangers
Nothing In My Way
Bend And Break
Try Again
Your Eyes Open
Hamburg Song
Can’t Stop Now
The Frog Prince
Bad Dream
This Is The Last Time
Broken Toy
Somewhere Only We Know
Is It Any Wonder?

Encore:
Atlantic
Crystal Ball
Bedshaped

Not only did I manage not to burst into tears the moment Tom started singing (like the first Keane day) but I didn’t cry the whole night!! Well….I wept a little in Atlantic but that’s all.

Tom came into the crowd three times in all. The first time was during Nothing In My Way. I was in such shock that I just stood there staring at him with my mouth open. Everyone was reaching round me trying to touch him and I just stood there in awe like a complete fool! I was trying to take some pics but couldn’t work out why my camera wouldn’t take any....turns out I had it recording instead....so I have a very shaky video of up-close Tom hehe!!! the second time he came down I managed to move...and touched THE arm! (don’t worry if u don’t understand that...trust me though, its good!!!) and the last time he came to the crowd I managed to hold his hand...rather he held mine...his hands are so huge!! I squeezed it and he squeezed back. I did almost cry then...but so much was happening I got distracted instantly and didn’t really take it in until on the way home.

They did a fantastic acoustic-guitar version of Your Eyes Open...Tom played guitar and sang, Tim did backing vocals and Rich had a shaker lol. It was bril!! Hamburg song has never been more beautiful, it was the best live performance of it I've ever heard! If I hadn’t been filming it I definitely would have cried...a lot!

I managed to be geeky at Keane.... while Tom was talking after This Is The Last Time, Tim quietly played a 3-note chord and I instantly shouted to meg that it was Broken Toy...she looked a little confused and the people next to her didn’t seem too convinced of my awesome Keane-psychic powers....and sure enough a few seconds later they played broken toy! Oh yeah!! get me!!!

I got some great pictures and managed to video 5 full songs...which I am downloading gradually to my photobucket account...so will post links here when they’re all done.

After the gig we hung around outside trying to find out where/if the band were going to come out to sign stuff. I started out feeling pretty hopeful as they had come out for all the rest of the dates so far. But we ran around, and waited in the cold for a few hours to be told by some retard of a guard that they weren’t going to. So we headed off home. I was a little pissed to begin with...and still a little now coz so far the 2 ally pally dates have been the only gigs that they haven’t come out for. Would be my luck wouldn’t it!! still, I had the best night ever so I guess there’s always next time!

I slept the whole way home, and once I got into bed dreamt about the gig all over again, so I woke up pretty happy!!

There’s some of my pic's here -this is my very own page on the official Italian website made by the guy who runs it. They’re not all my pics...just ones I posted on the forum.

Here's some of my fav pics...taken by me!!! (gonna get the first one and maybe the one at the start of the blog framed)...click on them, they get bigger:

Awww now its been 24 days since Keane Day!!

im back!!

2006-11-10T19:37:00.000Z

hmmm yes i know its been forever since i posted...and for very good reason!! i worte a very long blog a day b4 steve irwin died...explainging everything ever....but when i was was trying to put a Keane pic on it, the computor crashed and i lost everything. after Steve died i didnt wanna write anything, then school kinda overwhelmed me!

so heres a post to update on the lost post and a new one.

old news:

im back at 6th form doing AS and A2 biology in the same year. its a lot of work and it sucks!!
it was so hard starting back at school, i had no friends coz they all left. i got put into emma stokes' tutor coz i half knew her and now we're good friends :) unfortunately she has no frees at the same time as me. the first month of school were horrible, i didnt know anyone in my classes, and my frees were spent alone. i absolutely hated it. its not too bad now tho. i made some good friends both in yr 12 and 13, and most of my frees seem to be with at least one of them. only 2 periods a week i have the whole dining room to myself tehe!! its still lonely though, i miss all my friends so so much. it didnt seem it at the time, but last year was one of the best years of my life.

spinky broke up with me a month before he went to uni...that was gay!! we're still friends and in touch though. i miss him a lot too!

the lost post was 54 days before keane i think...roughly!! wow ive seent hem now...but thats for a whole new post coming very soon!! at that time Tom had just gone into rehab. i was very sad..not because he was doing drugs and alcohol, but because i hate to think of him that unhappy. all the members of Keane are a little like a family to us Keanies...we know them so well, and care for them so much...so it was quiet upsetting to learn how miserable Tom was. but he's all better now :)

erm i cant think of any other old news, so......

New news:

school still sucks! but i am now seeing someone new at school. we've been together almost 2 months..but it feels like a lot longer. he makes me very very happy, we know each other inside out already. we get on really well, and so far havent had a single disagreement. if i believed in soulmates...he may just be mine. we have the same sense of humour, film taste, some music...the only difference (apart from hes a guy) is that i have lotsa geekish interests...like Stargate, sharks and animal documentaries...and he doesnt. he plays rugby and recently got into the A-team for the county! yay go sam!! he also does kick-boxing and karate.

my sister is now in france for her 3rd year of uni study. its not enough to do physics and astrophysics at York uni....she has to learn part of it in french too. dman her! shes so unbelievably clever. im so proud though!

I now have my blue belt in Kuk Sool Won, which is 2 belts off black..whooo go me!! theres now an official website for the ixworth kuk sool crew...check it out.

http://www.kuksoolwonofixworth.co.uk/index.html

the front page is my master Kevin Sanford. he rocks! hes an amazing teacher and a genuinely lovely guy. we have so much fun there! if you go to the photo album for 2006 im in the first picture...back row(s) 5ht in from the right...or 3rd girl from the right. on the left of me in Conor...Kevins son. he is now blackbelt and helps teach us too.

anyways...time for my Keane post...hopefully by this time next week :)

Steve Irwin

2006-09-04T11:38:00.000Z

The most amazing and enthusiastic man associated with animals had died. During filming Steve Irwin was stabbed in the heart by a Stingray. By the time the air ambulance got to him he was dead and they were unable to revive him.

I may not have talked about him much, but Steve Irwin is one of my hero's. He is such anamazing man, so passionate, excited and enthusiastic about animals. He had his own television series, film and he owns Australia Zoo.
For anyone that has seen him or his animal programes you will undoubtedly know just how enthusiastic he is-he comes across almost crazy. But for anyone that watched the series filmed at his zoo, you will know part of the real Steve Irwin- the off-camera Steve. He is a loving, caring man who is so sensitive and affectionate towards his family and friends. He was an outstanding person who brought such a lot to the world and made a difference to many people's lives, including mine.

My thoughts and love are with his wonderful wife, Teri, their two children, his friends and his 'zoo family'.

"All At Sea"

2006-08-26T10:29:00.000Z

Whaoh its been a long time....not that anyone really reads this so it doesnt really matter...but meh! So im gonna do 2 posts to catch up coz so much has happened. This one is about the Jamie Cullum concert i went to....

If i didnt love Keane so damned much, this could easily be the best concert ive ever been to. Me and Jen left to get to high lodge at thetford forest, so we'd be over 2 hours early....and there was still a queue of about 30 people before us! Dam them!!
When we were finally let in, after being told off for running (!!!!) we still managed to get right to the fornt of the barrier...to the right hand side. Which was cool, but the piano was on the left of the stage!

anyways, the forst support act was fantastic. they were called Cherry Black Stone...weird name! It had this fab black? coloured? what ever word is supposed to be correct nowadays...and Jade from the old group Damage, as the singers. they were really amazing and really got the crowd going.

The second act was absolute balls. 2 sisters, irish, guitar and mini harp. u get the picture. boring boring boring poo! and they just kept going and going! by the time theyd finished, we were half cheering for JC to come on and half cheering coz theyed finally buggered off!!

So JC swoons onstage with a beer in one hand and looking pretty good! his hair has got really long, but he's done it really nicely and it looks very cool! he was wearing a red shirt underneath a suit jacket...and GORGEOUS jeans! he gradually stripped down througout the first few songs until he was in the tshirt he had on underneath the red shirt.

He opened the night with Photograph...the only JC song i can "play" (very badly), which is a fantastic song. he did allsorts of stuff, a lot of older songs from his 2nd album... but they were amazing.

In the middle he did a medly of new songs...the only ones i can remember was that crazy song ("i remember when, i remember when i lost my mind") and neyo-so sick of love songs. there were about 5 or 6 songs in it and it was stupidly good!! what a genious!

My favourite JC song is called All At Sea. Its the first JC song i ever heard and its definitely in my top 5 fav songs ever. all night i was praying he would play it, i even tried to shout it out a few times...but the last sing came and he walked off. i was soooo extactic about the whole show, but really sad that id never get to hear all at sea live.

Me and ejnny got the crowd cheering "JAM-IE" for the encore and he gleefully ran back on. Then he sat down and suddenly began playing the intro to all at sea...at which point i literally screamed at the top of my lungs and did a sort of jumpy cricle thing lol. i then proceeded to burst into tears (score!) and just stood and listened the whole song. that was a phenomenal moment.

He also played Frontin', I Get A kick out of you and i could have danced all night. best encore ever!!!

The whole gig was fantastic, he is so amazing. his voice is perfect every note...im not kidding, not a tiny wrong note to be heard. his voice sounds great live. hes a natural entertainer and was just so much fun to watch. you can really tell he absolutely loves performing.
And even better, because his piano was on the other side, he made sure he came and stood/sang on my side a lot. He also played a huge bit on a big drum at the end of London Skies, and got the whole crowd joining in with a compositon of noises and beats. he plkayed his guitar and even had a go on some blokes bongos while another guy was on the saxaphone.

Anyways, i could keep going forever. Heres some amazing pics taken by other fans (coz i dont have abloomin digi camera...grrr)

xxxx

The countdown begins...

2006-06-23T08:17:00.000Z

AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Haha!!! I have tickets to see Keane!!!!!!!!!!! they went on sale today and i got 2 for the Alexndra Palace, London....only holds 2,000 people and its standing so i can get there early and be at the front!!!! as soon as it said "confirmed: You order has been successful" i burst into tears....and havent stopped since. Its been 17 minutes, so i hope i do soon!

OMG IM SO EXCITED!!

Right.......i have my tickest, so let the countdown BEGIN: 125 days

here's a few pics that make me fell warm inside :)

This is the very first pic i got, and the very first time i saw what Keane looked like!

Somewhere Only We Know poster

This is just an amazing, beautiful picture of my little Tommy

Another gorgeous one of Tom

"COACHELLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!"

Under The Iron Sea

2006-06-12T13:51:00.000Z

Yes!!! i finally have it! Its amazing!! Great inside cover...Instead of a booklet, it folds out vertically to have words on one side, and a huge continuous pic on the other (that includes the front cover...Its the top of the pic). I thought Hopes and Fears was the best album I'd ever hear from anyone...but oh my!! They've really really outdone any of my greatest expectations!!! Every song is just superb! i love them! There's not one i don't like.

I got up at 6am this morning to leave the house at 7.30am to go get it from sainsburys. I barely slept at all last night though! I was so hot, and just not tired at all. Every time i managed to go to sleep i had a dream about buying the album and woke up excited lol. When i got there Sarah was working, so she came with me to find it. I was really nervous it wasn't gonna be there though! When we got close to the home shop i could see the whole line/stack of them and literally screamed "Oh my god it's there!!!" and ran over. i picked the one right in the middle!! Tehe!!

If you get a chance, the ones you MUST hear are Leaving So Soon?, Hamburg Song, Broken Toy and The Frog Prince. Hamburg song I've probably talked about before...Its the most beautiful, delicate and emotional song I've ever heard. Its gorgeous! Broken Toy is a very cool song!! It starts off really eerie, changes a little more upbeat when Tom starts singing, then gets eerie again. It just gets better and better the whole way through.
The Frog Prince is a genious of a song! It's very magical, as you'd expect! About princes, ogres and castles...but the hidden meaning shines through. Great vocals in this one!

And finally, Leaving So Soon?. They've done it again- my heroes become even greater to me because of this song. I really identify with the song, its like Tim wrote it for me...Its started me healing and coping with everything i feel at the moment. Almost all of the song fits into what i feel, and feelings for a certain ****. Anything that doesn't fit ill put in brackets, the rest fits great. Some parts are soooo perfect I've highlighted them:

(You must think I'm a fool)
(So prosaic and awkward and all)
*Do you think you've got me down?*
(Do you think I've never been out of this town?)

Do I seem to eager to please to you now?
*You don't know me at all*
*I can't turn it on, turn it off like you now*

*No I'm not like you now*

Now you're here
I bet you're wishing you could disappear
*I'm trying to be kind*
I get the feeling you're just killing time

*You look down at me Don't you look down at me now*
*You don't know me at all*
A slap in the face, in the face for you now
Just might do now

You're leaving so soon?
Never had a chance to bloom
**But you were quick to change your tune**
Don't look back if I'm a weight around your neck
*Because if you don't need me I don't need you*

Apart from being so damned right, its a great song. Fantastic composition. It starts simple, and just builds and builds and builds until its almost exploding! I love this song.

I LOVE KEANE!

Under The Iron Sea....3 days left

2006-06-09T20:37:00.000Z

Ive been reading a lot of Keane interviews recently, and although many of them talk about the bad deppressing time they had when they almost split....theres a few that had made me laugh so loud!

In a gig a few weeks ago, Richard was happily sitting during Hamburg song- where he doesnt play drums till almost the end, when a packet of chewing gum comes flying from the balcolny and hits him in the face, making a huge bang through the mic next to him (in the middle of a really gentle, emotional song). He searches the balcolny for a bit to see who did it, but obviously no one was pointing themselves out as the culprit!
A minute or so later a beermat is thrown at him, just missing his eye. Written on it was "Sorry about the chewing gum". Tehe! Just genious!!

An interview in the guardian (i think) partly talks about Tom's (singer) wild 'antics' when he was little. It says:
"band legend tells that, aged 12, he randomly decided to shout "Fuck off, Margaret!" at Mrs Rice-Oxley (Tim's mum...Tim's the pianist) across the dinner table, though he denies this. He does happily admit that he recorded the phrase "holy shit" on to the Rice-Oxley family's Shakin' Stevens cassette, however. He didn't know it would get its first airing on their family car journey to the Lake District though."
And the funniest bit that made me almost wet myself imagining it:
""I was just that kind of child," (Tom)Chaplin sighs, with no small measure of pride. His own parents were no less vulnerable to his random cheeky interventions. "My dad annoyed me once when I was little, and he had this blank tape that he had recorded classical music on to, so I opened up the empty inlay card and wrote 'poo wee poo wee poo wee' all over the inside and then put it back. Just to spite him.""

Haha!! maybe its just coz im immature and 'poo' and 'wee' makes me giggle!!

Also, there was an audio interview with them and Edith whatshername. She asks Tom if he ever forgets the workd to their old songs when they perform them again now. he says "Yeah! The trouble is get worried and get into my head that im gonna forget the words...it gets to the point that all i can think about is forgetting the words, and a lot of the time i do. I did tonight actually *laughs*. I just hold the mic out to the crowd, or make up my own words *laughs more*"

Anyways, cant really think of anything thats happened. I had one AS exam, but thats it. my next exams are all A2, on tuesday, wednesday and then the wednesday after that. My parents go on holiday wednesday too, so will be having various peeps pver to keep me company...i hate being alone in the house at night!! erk!!

UNDER THE IRON SEA OUT IN 3 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (though secretly already got it....sssssh! Im still gonna buy it! tehe i cant wait!!!!)

Will blog soon as something good happens!!

"Let It Slide"

2006-05-30T12:40:00.000Z

Whoooooo! Yes! just got back from my driving test and I passed with 4 minors!!! To top it all i have an awful cold, and havent stopped sneezing since yesterday afternoon, and so didnt sleep much last night.

I forgot to post this the other day....i got an email from Minhea (gloria) who runs the official Tak Sakaguchi website, to say that she loves my Tak site. She was really impressed i managed to do my own screencaps for the 2 Death Trance trailers!!! When i went on the official one....the first post in the news section said " have a look at Tak Sakaguchi Fans, Ashleighs new Tak famsite. You can find it in the linkage page"...and sure enough there i was at the top, and the descritpion is " a nice brand new English Tak fansite with reviews, pictures and curiosities"....yay!!! Maybe Tak will see it and go on my website then want to marry me!!!

So if you wanna check out my site its http://groups.msn.com/TakSakaguchiFans

My gallery is cool...check it out, he's yummy!!

Whoooo!

2006-05-29T12:46:00.000Z

First of all...."Is It Any Wonder" is released today, with 2 b-sides called "let It Slide" and "He Used To Be A Lovely Boy". Go buy it!!!!! Come on number 1!!!

About a month ago a new post on the news section the the Keane website said that theyr were gonna make 2,500 7" vinyl record, witha special box, of 'Atlantic'. They are free but its first come first serve....so of course i entered straight away. After it had been a month I hadnt receieved one or had an emial to say if Id won or lost...so i asked the peeps on the froum if anyone else had got one, and no one had. Ironically the very next day a white package came in the post with nothing but a sticker with my name and address...notmarkings or anything. I was very because i couldnt remember ordering anything, but I openened it and it was the Atlantic thing!!!
This is a pic of someone elses, coz i havent got a digital camera:

Mmmmm perty!!! luckily mine didnt get dented or damaged at all...and it marks really really easily so if people wanna see it they have to wear gloves. Well i dont want finger prints all over it! Took me long enought to get mine off!

So just to end on an even happier note....here's a few more pics of Aya Ueto...*drool!

Bye all xxxx

"Crystal Ball"

2006-05-26T21:49:00.000Z

Today was the dreaded leavers assembly!! It went surprisingly well....I was the 3rd act in the show-did everybody's changing. I took the responsibility of opening and closing the curtains coz there wasn't enough stage crew peeps and I didn't want some scummy yr 9 messing it up! It did kinda make me so busy that I didn't have enough time to get nervous about it, that is until I was waiting for the curtain to open on us!! At that point I don't think I've been closer to wetting myself! Once they opened thought it wasn't as bad as I thought. I didn't like not being able to see the audience though. Most people think that's better but I didn't coz I couldn't tell if they were enjoying it or not...and when I was clapping I couldn't see if I was the only one lol!
Ruth (piano) and John (drums) did an absolutely stunning job! The bit that usually goes wrong was perfect...though I think I was out of time at one point! I tried to cover it up a little!
Big thanks to Marc for being so supportive! I was so nervous in the rehearsals I didn't think id go through with it but he was really reassuring. Thanks Marc, you're a star!!!

I bought a boxset of 2 films that I've been meaning to get for a while...called Azumi and Azumi II: Death or Love. Honestly I only bought them coz Tak is in both (as diff characters)....but I'm so glad I did coz they're amazing! They're both just stupidly beautifully shot! The story, of the first I particular, is heart wrenching...even for me!
Some of it is a little disturbing, not because its violent or gory but because of what is actually happening. For example there's a bit in the first film where the group the film follows reach a village where there are a gang of men on horses riding round slaying everyone. The main character, Azumi, sees a mother a daughter (of about 4) standing, terrified, by a house and holding hands. As the mother is trying to shield the little girl from all the (horrific) deaths, one of the riders throws a rope round her neck. She suddenly get whipped away from the girl, who is left to watch, in tears, as her mum id dragged through the village by her neck, behind the horse. Its just horrible to see this mum bouncing around and being strung like that!
Anyways Tak is fantastic, although short-lived in both lol. He play evil men in them. In the first he's in a small group, hired to go kill the main characters, who mistake a group of traveling performers as them. And the second hes a weird crazed guy who walks on poisoned wires that he strings up in trees.
The main character is amazing. The fighting is fantastic, and shes just amazingly beautiful!! Here's a few pics of her...shes called Aya Ueto:

I would recommend watching the films for soooo many reasons! Its beautiful, very entertaining, great story, good characters, phenomenal fight scenes....And if you don't like that sorta stuff you can just watch Aya...shes soooo beautiful!!

17 days until the Keane album!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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23 days to go!!

2006-05-20T11:45:00.000Z

Urg! what am i supposed to do? Alex is gonna turn everyone against me because no one will stand up to him and i wont make a fuss with them. Yeah it winds me up about whats he's said about me when he doesnt actually know anything. i know he's just lashing out at me coz he's hurt and knows i will probably just take it to avoid an argument.

It does really annoy me, however, just how he brings Marc into this. Me and Marc get on really well, but thats it. I can talk to him about anything, which is something i dont have with many people. He's a great friend and it kills me to see Alex treat him like shit for it.
Kev's 'own wording' of what i said to him is complete bull. When i was sitting outside skool after rehersals on...tuesday? he came over and asked what was going on. i just said we're just friends. he said he thought there was more, but i said there wasnt, i have abf and dont need another one. i told him that me and marc are close because i can talk to him.
I know i can talk to Jenny about anything, and i feel bad for not...its just so awkward when shes so close to Alex. She doesnt even stick up for me any more.

Me and Spinky have a great relationship, no matter what alex likes to think. we talk all the time and i do see him a lot. Its nice to be in a relationship were i can be friends with other people and not be quizzed about them. he has his other set of friends and i have mine, big deal. its called trust. I think its very low of Alex to bring Spinky into this, it has nothing to do with him...Alex is just making cheap shots.

Anyways, i have to go warm up...I hope Alex reads this and realises that lashing out at me and making stuff up about me and marc is useless. Yeah it hurts and is, quite frankly, childish and annoying...but you cant do anything about it. He's good friend and i need him.

23 days until UTIS is out!!!! whoooo! Here's the cover:

"Atlantic"

2006-05-07T19:54:00.000Z

Hmmm, alot has happened but I still cant think of what to write lol. Well, here's the important dates and days coming up:

17th may (10 days away)- My BDAY!!
29th May (22 days away)- 'Is It Any Wonder' single released
30th May (23 days away)- My driving test :S
2nd June (25 days away)- Marc's Bday
12th June (35 days away)- 'Under The Iron Sea' released!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
27th June (40 days away- 'Death Trance' released on DVD

me and mum went to see Take That a few weeks ago. It was mega good!! Not as good as Keane (duh!) but very cool! They had really good dances and weird digital animations of them behind them at one point...Really confuzzling! They had a huge wall of fire at one point, then it was raining on stage. They even had a contortionist, a lady performing on a big hoop really high off the ground, a fire breather and a tall juggler. The best bit was when they walked to the platform half way in to the audience and did a good half hour set on there....Really close to us!!!
despite being shattered the next day at school, it was well worth it!!

The 2 videos released by Keane are amazing, very different but amazing!
The first one, Atlantic, isn't an actual single, it was just a video directed by Irvine Welsh, who also did trainspotting. Keane themselves weren't in it though. It's all in black and white and starts with a man (who looks like Jesus tehehe) emerging from the sea. As he drags himself to the shore he sees a couple sitting on the sand holding hands. They have a letter rolled up and are putting it in a bottle. They throw it in to the sea and kiss.
He walks a bit more and comes across a boy kicking a football against the cliff, he kicks it too hard and it bounces off into the sea. The boy gestures to the man to go get it but he refuses, and the boy kicks him (harsh!!). The man walks off...though personally I would have hit him back!!
The next person he sees is a (large-ish) women [who we know is marge...She's on the forum a lot :)], in a swimming costume with a rubber ring round her waist. She walks into the sea and gets knocked over...The ring drifts away. A big wave envelopes her and she disappears. (* hats off to Marge....it is absolutely FREEZing that day!!)
Next he comes across a man with a metal detector. He points the man with the dectector to a certain spot (don't know how) and they go and dig a little. They find a dead, white bird.
He carries on walking and comes across a little boy and girl making sandcastles. When they look up and see he staring, they give him a funny look and trample all over their castles.
Lastly he's standing looking out to sea and 3 boys (chavs) throw bottles into the sea (think they're sposed to be lighted) and walk off. Suddenly a hand appears on his shoulder and he turns around. There's a close up of a white face and the man has really dark eyes...like black, and is expressionless. It zooms out and its the Grimm reaper.
It ends with the silhouettes of all the people in the video being lead away by the Grim reaper, all holding hands.

This is off camera...Its so cold, Richard has a hot water bottle in between his feet!! Poor marge having to run into the sea!!

Is It Any Wonder is a lot simpler....Basically in a big blacked out warehouse I reckon. Starts with amps and speakers surrounding the camera. The camera moves off and starts going round a track....Like a mini rollercoaster and the camera is the passenger. It whooshes up and down and round, with Keane standing at various points of the track. Tom's inside a big spiral that goes round him, and walks along the outside every now and again. Tim and Richard are pretty much always the same place coz they're busy playing the instruments. It whooshes through Tims legs twice.
My fave bit is when it gets back to the beginning of the track (2nd chorus) and climbs up a steep bit and goes shooting down and round a corner...Its so fun!! tehe

hmmm what else has happened?? Oh just saw the live performance of Keane on TOTP today...amazingly good!!! And shows all the people that think they've used guitars that they haven't! Just their good old Yamaha CP-70 piano put through various effects pedals.

Me and Ruth have decided to change our song for leavers assembly to 'Everybody's changing' which only leaves us a few weeks to practice. John has agreed to do drums for us and Im so relieved he said yes. I was so nervous about having to sing in front of some one else, I think I'll feel alright with John. I must admit, at the mo I'm excited about it Coz EC is a lot easier to sing and I know I can hit every note. But with everyday I'm getting more and more nervous! Im glad we're doing this one now though. It means a lot to me....First time I heard Keane, first time I saw Keane, and most importantly it reminds me of Foz. I wrote in his memorial book the lyrics to the 3rd verse: "You've gone from here, soon you will disappear, fading into beautiful light". so everytime I hear it I think of him.

Me and Marc went into town and had lunch on Saturday. Had great fun, can totally be me with him and not worry too much about being a geek. Then went on to LMA and after that went to piza hut with the parents and then to see M:I:III...It was mum's bday.

right, I know there's prob more, but I cant be arsed lol...Bye xxx

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"Is It Any Wonder?"

2006-04-19T16:07:00.000Z

YESS IS it any wonder has been heard and its super mega fantastic!! YAY!!

I made my own Tak Sakaguchi Fansite.... take a looksie http://groups.msn.com/TakSakaguchiFans yay! if u wanna join my club(please do i have no members lol) then enter your email and press go!!

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"A Bad Dream"

2006-04-04T13:44:00.000Z

I dont think i can read his blog anymore. its too personal, all i can think when i read it is 'that used to be me'. its weird and makes me sad.

Found a new trailer for Death Trance....amazing!! you even get a glimpse of Tak topless underwater.....this means back-age for me :) score!!

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UNDER THE IRON SEA

2006-04-04T13:41:00.000Z

UNDER THE IRON SEA IS OUT ON THE 12TH JUNE!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

1) Atlantic
2) Is It Any Wonder?
3) Nothing In My Way
4) Leaving So Soon?
5) A Bad Dream
6) Hamburg Song
7) Put It Behind You
8) The Iron Sea
9) Crystal Ball
10) Try Again
11) Broken Toy
12) The Frog Prince

Atlantic will be available as a downloadable only song in the middle of this month!! and Is It Any Wonder is released 29th May as a single!!

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2006-03-11T12:47:00.000Z

Alex has, and i quote, "forbidden" me to meet Emily. im not impressed. i like emily a lot, and i see no reason to why i cant meet a friend. i dont no what he thinks im gonna do, scared im gonna try and put her off or something?? for godsake im not a bloody child. he did say i could meet her nehind his back and he wasnt there, but seing how shes staying with him and probably cant get around bury thats impossible too.
ive also got another throat infection....i hear the dr calling for an operation! no way! my laptop is at skool in my locker coz i was too ill to go in friday, i have 2 essays to do for monday....the info is on my laptop.
i have work tomorrow, but i cant stay off coz ive had too many days off from being ill and ill get a permamnet written warning- shove them up ur ass andrea! and i said id swap my thursday shift for someone and do monday instead, forgetting i cant get there till 6 when i need to start at 4. bollocks!

im gonna go watch Tak sakaguchi in versus.....mmmm Tak :) some good zombie thrashng Tak action never does any harm

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JOEL'S BIRTHDAY!!!

2006-03-11T12:44:00.000Z

YAY!!!!! IT'S JOEL'S BIRTHDAT TODAY!!!! WHOOOOOOOO!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL!!!

"Sunshine" (Keane)

2006-02-27T19:49:00.000Z

Im so torn....im half happy Alex is moving on and half unhappy. dont get me wrong, i want him to be happy, but at the same time i feel jealous and hurt when i know he is.

the thing that makes it harder is emily herself. i love her, she's fantastic, which for me is good and bad. good because i no she'll look after him and she's genuine and lovely....which is what i want for him. but bad because if i no and love her i can't hate her for taking my place lol
i no it probbly makes no sense...but it's confusing and i'm not even sure what i mean!
but anyway, i think emily's great and i'm glad it's her...i just want someone to fill the void of hate....i no, Hiliary duff mwuahahaha!!

"Your Eyes Open" (Keane)

2006-02-06T16:49:00.000Z

I hate the way that everyone thinks I'm fine because I'm the one that ended it.
I hate the way people don't understand I didn't want to, but I had to.
I hate the way only one person has asked me how I feel every now and again but no one else bothers.
I hate the way people look at me now because I'm the 'bad guy'.
I hate it that it takes me hours to get to sleep because all I can do is cry.
I hate waking up with puffy eyes.
I hate having to wear make-up that covers it.
I hate not knowing who I am now.
I hate the way that I now have to think about it because I don't have re-sits to do.
I hate the way my skins got worse and I get haeadches from stress.
I really hate the way that a few of my friends need some support and I don't know how to help them.

Phasing

2006-01-22T17:39:00.000Z

hey guys....just to let you know i have a msn space now, so probs wont be updating here much. i was only sawyed coz i can have folders of pics....lotsa Keane and Joel in other words lol. anyways, the address is http://spaces.msn.com/members/flyaninnocentlife

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2006-01-18T21:04:00.000Z

I miss him

'The World Is Black' - (G.C)

2005-11-22T19:52:00.000Z

On monday there was dense fog, so thick you could barely see more than a few metres ahead of you. That afternoon there was a serious car accident involving four people from my 6th form, one of which has died. His name was Daniel Burt (Foz)...it was a side on collision at fast speed and he was in the seat behind the driver taking the full force of the crash. He had to be cut out of the car and was rushed to hospital. Unfortunately his parents are on holidy, but his little sister in the year below, was there. She got to see him for a few minutes before he was rushed to have emergency surgery. During the operation he had breathing difficulties and passed away. I can only imagine what his sister and parents are going through.
The other people in the car were also seriously injured, but very lucky to still be here. One has amnesia, another could be permamently paralysed and the last has 2 broken legs and needs plastic surgery on his nose.

I didn't know Foz that well, at least not anymore. We used to be friends in middle school-he sat near me in maths. Last year he was in my history class, and even graded me an A in essays we all had to write and mark. It's going to be weird in school tomorrow, I got used to seeing his face in our form room every morning when he came to see his friends.

I hope everyone will bear in mind the tradgedy that has happened to our school, and remember this when you're driving with other people in the car. Be responsible- Foz was not the driver.

Goodbye Foz, we'll all miss you x

Strangers

2005-11-04T20:17:00.000Z

erkk...you just get to the point where you havent blogged for such a long time you can be bothered to start again!! and now i cant remember whats happened!
alex has moved into his house...its nice and cosey. i hope he is happier there. i guess itll be hard to adjust coz hes so used to having people around him all the time, hopefully itll just be nice to have personal space. hes ill at the moment...chest infection bless him!! Im ill again too :( i had another throat infection which started at the same time Alex got ill, so it was forgotten about before anyone cared. it went away quickly this time tho...thankfully. it must have been a rebound one!
i went up to see my sister last week for 4 days. had a great time, i dont realise how much i miss her untill i see her! we had a great time. the first night we went round to Jason's, who's........special lol. he's actually very smart but he has his special moments....for instance when we walked inot his room to find him sitting with a furry hat on that had wings to look like a bat. soon as he saw us he pulled little strings that made the wings flap...i was crying with laughter! he's really sweet tho...we were there because the 'physics gang' had to do some hard work, and jason let me wathc countless episodes of scrubs on his computer.
on the third night me and hay went out to the town and ate in this amazing restaurant called ask. it was in a huge hall that had massive marble pillars down each side. it looked like a room that the king would hold a ball in. and the food was amazing!!! and not badly priced either. we then headed out to a cocktail bar and she bought me a drink that tasted like a chocolate milkshake....no kidding i couldnt taste the alcohol and apparently there was about 4 diff ones in it. yummy. Jonny Depp went to the same place last year, so we made a point of walking through the main door where he would have lol
we then went to the pub to meet everyone else, just in time to hear a Jason's story of being drunk, chasing a rabbit, the bouncing of a bush continuously untill he fell over....so special!
on my last day we went to leeds and did some shopping...we ended up buying nothing though....except lunch. in the evening i got the train home.
poor hayleigh...shes the only one that will tidy up in her house. she lives with 3 guys who never so anything. today she was really angry because she had to wash up the guys' dirty plates becuase they had been there so long they were smelling. i told her to just dump it all in their rooms. one of her housemates is obssessed with her and is now in therapy becuase he cant stop thinking about her...how awkward must that be! needless to say she locks her bedroom door at night!

sunday was my first shift on a diff department at sainsburys. i changed my hours from 4hour to doing 7. when i arrived a superviser saw me and told me i was supposed to be on checkouts because i was still written down on their sheet. i said i wasnt on there because i had signed my new contract a month ago and they knew all about it. i ended up arguing with her a little. in the end they called me up for support when it got busy...i was there for 6 hours. even when i had no customers they wouldnt let me go. in the end i closed myself down and went back anyway despite them telling me not to. i had just half an hour left to do about 3 roll pallets which is a ull days work... of course i couldnt do and there wasnt enough staff to cover it so the whole department was behind schedule. just to rub it in they called a girl from the clothing bit to help too. she was put on the till in front...and literally 15 mins later they closed her down even though she had a queue of customers and let her go back to her deparment. i was absolutely fuming when i got out. im not looking forward to this sunday coz i know theyll do the same.

a new DVD is releaesed Monday called Strangers. its a documentary about Keane!! their friend follwed them on their 20 month tour last year and filmed them. theres some clips on a mini website for it...it looks really good..i mean so good i want to cry!! it really shows them how they are. if anyone wants to have a look the site is www.hyperlaunch.com/keane/strangers just click on 'excerpts' or summit like that.
anyway, im exhausted...ive had a long week and schools been really hard. sleep sounds nice right now xx

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2005-10-10T17:31:00.000Z

haha, I have a mac, and Alex's is still out for repair!!!

'The Sun Ain't Gonna Shine Anymore'

2005-09-29T10:48:00.000Z

oh joy. i have been struck down with yet another throat infection. i only had one almost exactly 2 months ago...i wrote a blog called bedshaped on the 25th august about it. i went to the doctors yesterday and saw agood one, unlike the other guy who didnt give me anything and was wrong about his diagnosis. this one was really friendly. he asked a lot of questions about my life and what it was like having my sister home last week.
he gave me some thing to gargle to make it go away quicker. he didnt give me any antibiotics becasue he wasnt sure if it would help it. having antibiotics for the last one is the reason i got it again. he was a little worried why ive been so low recently, and said once this infection has gone away, if im still feeling down, he wants to do some blood tests. he told me not to go to work last night, and said to take it as easy as i can at school and get some rest this weekend. i like him :)
anyway, so im at home today, the only lesson i would have had...the teacher is away. im doing a hard essay thats in fr tomorrow :(

i went to sains on tuesday to talk to a man called brian about changing departments. ad its a sucess. within the next four weeks i will now be on fresh foods, and not checkouts!! yay!! i have to do more hours - two 6 hour shifts, but it goes quickly and i get breaks. he was really nice and we had a laugh talking about it, and then he said: " well this was supposed to be an interview...so if anyone asks, you've had one!". both shifts im doing will be with Sarah, this amazing girl who used to be on checkouts. im so happy ill be with her, shes the best! always cheers me up at work, and it was her that made it all happen really. thankyou Sarah!!

im also getting a laptop of my own...finally!! no i wont have to lug around the giant one that i borrow from alex, i wont have to copy all my work so i can do it at home. and ill be able to sit in my room and do hw...which is how i work best. Im getting the same one as Alex has just got. he said it would be a really good one for me to have coz it has everything i need, its simple and its light so i wont kill my shoulder carrying it to the bust stop. i cant wait!! it will be here any day now...maybe even sometime today!!

right i better go, i need to do this essay! bye all x

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'Is It Any Wonder?'

2005-09-23T17:50:00.000Z

what an amazing anniversary!! my parents went on holiday last friday (got back today), so alex came over and slept round friday night. we finally got up saturday morning, very reluctantly and went shopping in the town. Alex bought me some new jeans and a bra ive wanted for ages!! and then we finally went shopping to get alex new clothes!! he wear clothes that are too big for him or just unflattering and ive been dying to get him into some that shows off how good looking he is!! he got a new jumper which is.........amazing *dribble*...the sleeves cover half his hand which for some reason is really sexy, it fits him really nicely and shows off the bits he likes and hides bit he doesnt...men are so like girls deep down!! he looks stunning. also the neck is very slightly wider than usual, which shows that tiny bit more of his neck mmmm.
anyway!! he also got a black longsleeved t-shirt and 2 pairs of jeans. yummy!

we then went to my singing class, it was the first day back after summer. we're doing the elephant love melody from moulin rouge, and one day ill fly away. im going to ask if we can do come what may too coz its so beautiful. i had so much fun!!

after that me and alex went to the restaurant we had our first date in...he even booked the exact same table. the food was fantastic and Alex was gorgeous, it was a great meal. we eventually got a taxi home and spent the night being all lovie and cuddly.

Alex slept over sunday too, and we just fell asleep in each others arms, it was so amazing. i felt safe and loved, warm and it was so comfy. on sunday morning he left for sams.

at about 2pm on the same sunday, the front door opened....i was frozen as the Devil himself walked through the door ranting at me....then i realised it was my sister! lol! as much as i love her and love seeing her...this week has been absolute hell. ive never been busier at school, every single one of my frees ive ben doing work! gay!! and soon as i get home, its more work. ive been having to get up at 6.30am to sort out the cat, my lunch and the kitchen and then get ready for school. and ill get in and hay hasnt done anything all day. the house is a mess. so i do my best to do as much hw as poss and then clear up a little. we both made dinner most nites, but it was me left clearing it up. and every night shes been here, i havent got to bed till at least half 11. theres always something that she will do. she cant tidy something by herself. so ive been living on less that 7 hours sleep a night all this week. im so tired.
shes also the most demanding bossy person ever. she'll say, 'oh we need to do this...' and then tell me to do it. she wont so much as clear up a galss that i leave out. its so frustrating. last nite she made a fuss when she had to take the black bin out to the front. she didnt want to go out alone, but i was in my pjs so i coodnt-i just stood at the door with the lights on and a torch. she got to the gate at the side of the house and realised there was another bin in the way...and instead of moving it she started shouting and swearing because i hant taken it all the way to the garden. she was shouting...at half 11 at night, outside!! she ended up thrashing the bins around so hard i was amazed they didnt tip over and deposit its insides all over the garden. i heard her swearing at me calling me names under breath round the corner of the house. i was so fed up and tired i just said' look in just gonna f***ing leave you on your own then' and walked off to bed so she was alone outside.
anywaysm sorry to rant!! its been a very hard week. im so glad the parents are home...im making bets on how long itll be before they start blackmailing me with how untidy my bedroom is...i give it till tomorrow evening at the latest. but to me its either A level hw or tidy my room. which is more important??

the sister has gone out tonight....bliss. just me mum and dad.
i need to go and rest now so bye!!

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"Sunshine"

2005-09-13T17:15:00.000Z

i havent got much to say...i think!! i always think that and then end up babbling away.

its mine and alex's 1st year anniversary this saturday-whoohooo!! we're going for a meal in the same resturaunt we had our first date at.....cant wait!!!

going back to school was......stressful!! i had to drop history...and then try to pick up another full AS and A2 course. After consulting the head of 6th form i had to go and find a teacher to ask about the lesson i wanted to pick up, i was waiting for him to talk to me for half an hour!! then i finally went back to talk to the head and was queuing for 1 and 1/2 hours to eventually find nothing fitted with my timetable.
after that it becomes a very long story...so heres the conclusion: this year i am taking A2 psychology and resitting one AS exam in january, A2 philosophy and ethics and resitting all 3 AS exams in january, and i am also retaking the AS philosophy course because my stupid fat horribe bitch of a teacher didnt teach us anything and we all did crap. which means i have to sit in a yr 12 class and do the whole course again. and because of this i cant take up a 3er A level as there is no room for it in my timetable. and so, i will have to stay at the school for a 3rd year to do soiciology AS and A2 in that year.
so i'll still be at school when all my friends have left and gone to uni....how depressing is that!! ill be all on my own. i cant wait :(

well thats it for now i guess, i cant really be bothered to write any thing else. bye x

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"On A Day Like Today"

2005-09-02T18:14:00.000Z

you know them days where it all starts great and then it all goes wrong in a few seconds? lucky me.
this morning i layed in bed untill about 11, watching tv and eating chocolate...mmmm lindt. when i did finally get up i had a lovely shower and then rode my bike to the shop to get some porridge oats. after lunch i made some flapjacks as a surprise for mum when she got home from work...and felt very chuffed when they came out the oven looking scrumptuous!!
thats when the stupid day changed. i decided to do some homework while the flapjacks cooled but i couldnt seem to find my history text book. after about an hour of frantically turning my room upside down and finally coming to the conclusion it definitely wasnt in there, i proceeded to destroy the rest of the house. its not here. crap! we only got it just before the holiday started and i havent read it yet, so i really cant think of if i had even taken out of my bag where the hell i put it!! oh shite.
to make things worse, i finally went back to the flapjacks and tuned the tin upside down to get it all out. instead half of it fell out in a crumbly pile, leaving the rest stuck to the tin. it looked like thick cat sick that was, for some reason, oaty. how it got stuck to the tin is still a mystery. i greased the tin, put greaseproof paper in it, then greased the paper too!! a fucking octopus couldnt have stuck to it!! grrr!

i think i have finally come to terms with Joely and fatty. i suddenly realised if they've been going out for 2 years...they must be in love. pitty its with her, but still, im glad he's in love. he wrote a whole song about wanting to fall in love on their first album.

i made a new friend on wednesday. He's called will, and is very nice. i especially like him because when i mentioned Good Charlotte, he didnt do the whole..."GC suck, ur such a geek for liking them, their music sucks..blah blah". he didnt say anything about them.

im so sick of people giving me grief about liking GC. when ever someone says something i feel like......i dont care!!!! i like my music for my reasons not yours. i dont insult your music so piss off!! but hay ho, maybe it would be easier to punch them in the face!

i went out with jenny and loads of her friends last night, it was interesting. in all i talked to a man with more mouth lip piercings than benji madden about his snakes, death metal music and spelling; annoyed gavin so much he almost physically exploded; comforted people in tears; danced with meg; ate some prawn crackers; sang loudly to Keane and GC on the music box and spilled my lemonade :(
also a new situation arose. for the first time ever since ive been going out with alex i fancied someone that isnt famous (eg Joely!!). i still dont think he was as gorgeous as my baby, but it was weird. i didnt speak to him so either way it made no difference.

anyway i dont think i can possibly write anymore. its too dull and boring...i wish i could write so everything was interesting x

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Bedshaped

2005-08-25T21:37:00.000Z

ARG it seems the news of Joel and fatty hit me harder than i thought. i instantly got a throat infection and havent been able to rid of it.
After 3 days of pain i finally caved and went to the doctors last friday and ended up queuing for 45 minutes. my appointment was at 9.40 how could the doctor be that late already!!!! anyway, i finally got called, sat down and told him i had a sore throat. he took my pulse and then started to prepare an instrument thats looked like it was going to be shoved in my ear. O GOD!!! i was ready to scream at him to get away from my ear when he plunked it onto my forehead to take my temperature. phew!!
he finally proceeded to look down my throat at the 2 lovely looking ulcers and said " yep, you have a sore throat". a round of applause please for the doctor thats very good at his job!!
he said he THOUGHT it was viral so couldnt give me anything to treat it and just said to keep taking painkillers.
however he was wrong! over the weekend it got so bad i could barely drink. and i couldnt go back to the doctor because its shut weekend's. Alex had a look down my throat and said something about it looking as if i have a whole new species down there. i must admit...it wasnt pretty. ulcers everywhere!!! it was gross!!!
on monday there were no appointments left and by tuesday it seemed as if it was on its way out. but it got to a point of healing and then just stopped. so a phonecall to the doctor wednesday ended up with him prescribing me antibiotics. he said i sould have got them friday as a precaution anyway as they wouldnt hurt me.
and today its finally going!! hahahaha stupid throat disease!!!

Also brilliant news for today, i had a super-special, ultra-mega fantastic parcel arrive. a SIGNED Keane CD!!!! OMG!!!! its so cool, they touched it!!! Alex is gonna frame it for me!!!

i also had a friend round who ive only recently started to meet up with again, after a year!! its so good to hang out with him. hes such a great guy.
anyway, this has been long enof and im too lazy to type anymore. nite x

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Secrets

2005-08-17T22:03:00.000Z

It has just been released that Joel Madden and Hilary Duff have been secretly dating for 2 years.

Bitch.

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HOLIDAY

2005-07-30T00:17:00.000Z

hey everyone. ive finally remembered to blog- score!!
me and alex went on holiday to Lille, France for four days last week. it was brilliant. we had to get up at half 4 in the morning, now thats what holidays are about!!we got a train from a nearby station to london liverpool street, then a taxi to waterloo and then the eurostar to Lille.
our hotel was in an area of Lille called Roubaix. Lille is weird, its one huge city/county area, thats split into smaller towns and villages. roubaix is so pretty, and there were loads of shops, which i normally hate, but when its in a different country its exciting. our hotel room was great, good size, double bed and a toilet bath/shower.
on our second day we decided to try the French underground, the metro. it is so cool!!!! if any of you have been on it you'll know why. its all completly run by computors. theres no driver in any of the trains. at both ends theres just a huge glass window so you can watch where youre going. its the funest thing ever!! like a rollercoaster, but safer. being run by computors means that the trains are always on time, they go faster and theres more of them.
they also make suicide at underground stations impossible. where the ground falls away to the tracks theres a wall and clear doors that open straight onto the train. theres no way to get past the doors unless theres a train there.
when we went to the centre of Lille, we had lunch in this pub/restaurant and it was the best meal i think ive ever had. i ordered chicken in mushroom sauce, and got served a huge plate of half a cooked chicken (on the bone :S), fries and a yummy salad. all the foods so fresh it tastes amazing. alex ordered a steak and got enough to be half a cow!
in all we didnt do that much, just walked alot.
i really wanted to go swimming so we went and found the pool in Lille, but it was shut. so we got a train to the nearest station we could see near a place called Fivres. we had to walk a couple of miles to get there, and once we were there it was.....a shithole. we walked around fivres following the signs for the pool and ended up doing a mile or so to find out it was almost where we started. when we got there, it was also shut and didnt open for an hour. so we walked even more and found a nearer metro station and got the hell out of there.
when we tried again in a different place, to begin with itwasnt looking good. the area the pool was in was a huge estate of coucil flats for the yobs of france. once we found it (after lots of walking again) it didnt look too bad, though the changing rooms were...public?? there were about two changing compartments, but the door started and your knees and ended mid torso. the door didnt even shut properly leaving a nice big gap on both sides and had no lock. great. luckily it wasnt busy and there was none else in the changing rooms.
and finally we were ready to go swimming-at last!! the pool looked great, wasnt crowded, just a few kids. and the swimming guard told alex he wasnt allowed to wear swimming shorts. he had to wear trunks. apparently the difference of 5 cm in length is important. (surely shorts are better, less chance of...well you know) what a stupid rule. luckily alex said it was his first time there and he let us go in. what an asshole!! im surprised they dont make the girls wear bikinis that only just cover them!!
thats pretty much all we did. we had fun and rested and walked...alot. it was so great being with alex for such a long time with no one else.
5 days straight with him and i still couldnt get enough of being with him, its such a great feeling.
so in all the holiday was fantastic, we had so much fun, despite it raining and us having to buy an umbrella lol next time we're going further south in france. any reccomendations??

any way, Fiona is about to arrive. i cant wait!!! Fiona is my best friend, she moved to york last year and ive only seen her once since. any minute now she'll turn up !!!! YAY!!!

sorry the blog is written so badm its all in a rush. bye xXx
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live 8

2005-07-09T11:49:00.000Z

hey! well me and alex went to live 8. overall it was fantastic!!! we were queuing for such a longtime tho!! my feet were killing me beofre we reaced the gates, which took a couple of hours! we missed u2 at the beginning, but were there to see coldplay for alex.
Keane were obviously the best ever!!!! most of the acts were good, although madonna was awful and elton john was trying to be cool by playing stuff that was almost rocky. im not really sure wot else to say about it, alex will be more detailed wen he talks about it.
grr this morning i woke up at 10am, and turned on my tv just in time to see the end titles of The Tribe. my fav show ever. i no its shite dont worry, but i just love it. and plus michael-wesley smith is hot! anyway, so i ran to the living room and check the tv guide, and it didnt say 1st in the new series. i then grabbed some shoes, ran outside in my pjs and rumaged through the blue bin to find last weeks guide. turns out last weeks was the 1st. im not sure if im happy or sad!! happy coz ive only missed 2 episodes (cood have been much more if i hadnt woken up) but sad because that 2 whole hours of potential michael-ness! at least ill be watching next week!!

i have an LMA show tonight. i have to sing a couple of lines solo, on a microphone!! both of which ive never ever done before!! even worse my dad, alex and one of y best friends are coming to see. im shitting myself already!!

anyway, i have 4 hours to warm up...so bye!!

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tehehaha

2005-06-09T20:53:00.000Z

hey everyone, sorry bout the time it keeps taking me to come back. life's so boring at the mo.

and yes Kate it is that ashleigh :) hello!!

just read something that made me giggle, so thought i wood share. someone asked how babies are made on a GC forum, and someone said, "hm.*puts on glasses*when a man loves a woman, and wants to get close to her,the man puts his hoo hoo dilly in the woman's cha cha" lol just thought it was slightly amusing.

also some good charlotte news. i know no one probably cares, but i do so ha! lol. good charlotte posted some bads news about chris the drummer. they said he is leaving GC for a bit because of health priblmes that he's been struggling with for a while. he wants to be with his family, and if he gets better he will return to GC.
i hope anyone that does care will be sending Chris your wishes and hope he gets better. it sounds very serious. i really hope hes alright.

had my last exam today yay!!! now i need to rest. so bye all, good morning/afternoon/evening xxx

funtime

2005-05-06T20:17:00.000Z

hey guys, ill finally explain why wednesday was so gd!! well obviously alexs laptop was found, but that was right at the end of the day. after lunch i had ethics, and i got my 3rd A for timed essays. and then we had philosophy. i hate my teacher, not many of us like her, and shes forever horrible to us. she managed to call us stupid 3 times in one single lesson. i got my own back.
we had to make revision guides ages ago, and she collected them in 3 weeks ago (gd idea miss, how can we revise now??!!), and every lesson for the past 3 weeks she keeps saying 'oh ill give them to you next lesson' and still no revsion guides have been returned!! on wednesday we played a revision game and my group won!! OH YEAH!! unfortunately, the rest of the class did awful. so she shouted at us, telling us we were stupid and we hadnt done ne work and blah blah!!!
she then went on to shout, " on monday, i want you to bring notes on all the arguments, who supported them, who opposed them, criticisms..." , at which point i interrupted because thats exactly what we just did in our revision guides. here's how it went:
" err, miss. thats what we've just done in our revision guides isnt it?" (<- me)
"okay. well bring those then" ( <- miss troll-shout-a-lot)
"but we cant. you still havent given them back, remeber??"
"well then..." (shouting again)"...youve got all your notes, use them"
"well the point of the guides was to bring all our notes together, theres too uch stuff otherwise"
at this point she did a snouty pouted looked followed by a silence, then " you can come and collect them tomorrow then"

hehehe! well, i wented to collect it yesterday, and she was off with a "sore neck".

also, at sains that nite, i was put on trollies for an hour and it was soooooooooooooo fun!!!
must go, i have some serious relaxing to do xXx

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YAY

2005-05-04T16:56:00.000Z

WHOOOOOOO!! the best day eva!! no time to explain, work soon, the most important thing you must know now is that alexs laptop has been found, and is being fingerprinted!! YAY!!! xXx

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fuming

2005-05-03T19:24:00.000Z

right now i think im going to explode. its been a bad day, and its just got much much worse.

Alex's laptop has been stolen......from his locked office. we left it there on friday coz we went straight into town after school, and found out today it has gone. which means 2 things:
1) someone witha key to that office has taken it. i dont know how many ppl have one, but i only know of 2, including alex
2) brian (another technician kinda guy) left it open when he borrowed a camera, and some how someone ran in and took it.

trouble is it was over the weekend. who would be at skool at the weekend?? there was no forced entry, so it must have been opened.
it has everything on there. everything. his work for the past 2 years, so thats exams notes, class notes, my history notes. not to mention hundreds of pictures of everyone at skool, all of his music.
i am so so angry. if i find out who took it, i will punch their face in. im not kidding. im so angry.

GC RULE

2005-05-03T12:08:00.000Z

hey guys, thanx for commenting, it always makes me feel special lol. the name fly an innocent life comes from a GC song. it was originally an innocent life (from no. 13 or 14 on chronicles) but it was taken so alex came up with adding fly. i love GC, this morning at skool rose handed me 3 posters and a 2 page interview :)yay!
this morning was sooo pants!! i woked up and could barely breathe, my nose was blocked and my throat was swollen. my ears were and still are blocked, then i was already 10 minutes late, and only had 10 mins beofre i had to leave, and i got a nose bleed. for 25 minutes. :( dad had to take me in late. now i cant blow my nose and i cant hear. its weird!!
yesterday was really fun tho. alex came round for the whole day, we watched a film, and b4 tea we went outside and played with a tennis ball. my arm cains now, i pulled all my muscles trying to throw far enough to impress him a little. owie.
i hope you lot are all okay!! everyone seems to have this yukie cold thats going round.
anyway, i should get some work done, byesey xXx

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whooo, its been a while

2005-04-30T17:09:00.000Z

hey everyone, or anyone that actually reads this. everything has been so busy lately me or alex havent had a chance to blog. really sorry.
alex has started his new job at the school, half a term early. its been really weird without him. he's still there, but because he does his jobs mornings, break, lunch, frees, and after school too, i barely ever see him. the only time i see him for more than 10 minutes is during ou psychology classes together, and when he comes round. to make it even worse, we're not allowed to be seen together at school coz hes a member of staff. apparently we cant be friends?? neva mind, im sure ill get used to it.
ive been doing tonnes of homework, coursework and revision. i spent the whole 2 week easter break doing coursework everyday (cept easter itself!!).
so thats all that been happeneing really. not much, but a lot at the same time.
alex should hopefuly be moving into franks house next week, after a couple of delays. his bike broke, but should be fixed next week too and once his bank account is sorted, he will get payed.
i have managed to get a dreadful cold (AGAIN!!!!!) so im not happy. i hav work tomorrow which will be hell. this is the 3rd cold ive had since me and alex have been together. how many has he had?? one. just one. damn his superman-like health abilities!!
anyway, im still doing work. i cant wait till the exams have finished. since the easter break ive been doin homework every single night, apart from when alex comes round. my frees at school are spent revising and being totally boring whilest everyone has fun and eats big chocolate cakes.
and a few more things to complain about, then ill go. first, our AS exams start on the 16th may. we dont go on study leave untill the 23rd!! how the hell does that work!!! that means we have to go to school everyday even if we dont have exams, and do class revision. everyone knows how useless class revision is. no one learns anything.
also, my birthday is the 17th may, a day after the exams start. and since we're at school i cant go driving on my birthday. dad is also working on my birthday, so even if we had no school i could neway. (dads teaching me to drive). im hoping he can book it off, then ill just take the moring off school since i dont have ne lessons till last 2 ne way.
hmm i really need to do work now. i feel like poo!! and i dont like not being able to hear properly. bye guys xXx

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suntime, funtime

2005-03-24T19:54:00.000Z

well well, finally a blog !
ill admit, i havent blogged because, well, ive been too lazy. lotsa stuff has been going on adnt i just couldnt be arsed. but im doing one now, trouble is, i cant remember much.
hayleigh has come back from uni. great to see her, but i was just getting used to life without her being there. now i can neva get in the bathroom when i need to. mum has now become obssessed with spending time as a family or with anyone in the family at all. she even tried to guilt trip me last nite! i got home from an awful shift at work, very very tired, and because she moaned i sat with her and hayleigh whilst i ate some biscuits (i forgot how good digestives taste!!). twenty minutes later (half 11) i decided it was safe to retreat and get at least 6 or 7 hours sleep, but mum said " dont go to bed. dont you love me anymore?", it was half joking. shes now also saying i dont love her when i dont eat up all my chips at dinner time.
on a happier note, me and alex went swimming!!!!yay!!! and i didnt drown!! whooooo!!
we swam, and went in the jacusi, and steam room and sauna. but all lots of times in random orders. it was sooo cool. tho i didnt like the steam room. it hurt to breathe coz the boiled water that makes the steam burned my throat everytime. :( sauna was cool tho. and swimming was my favourite, i was really worried because i cant really swim that well. im too weak to do it. but i did okay and didnt drown, tho alex did make sure he had a little bit of fun at my expense, trying to convince me to use a float, and asking the other pool occupiers if theyd think badly of me if i did. but i didnt really care, swimmings way too fun. its such a novelty.

oooo and of corse we went and saw Jimmy Carr!!! o man!!!!!!!!! it was soooo good. and i was very surprised to see hes not actually fat. i saw him again on tv after we saw him, and he looks fat on tv, its very confusing for me. anyway, he was very funny. picked on the three 15 yr old chavs sitting next to us, definately deserves some brownie points for that!! i realy enjoyed it, and i think alex did too. he was really bummed he didnt go to doves after all tho.

erm im not sure what else i can say, i cant remember much at all.

i saw the advert for subway sandwiches again today. its so bloody annoying. im gonna give you some advice i thought of all by myself, its 3 reasons why you should never ever eat at subway. it might help if you imagined some one funny writing this bit.

1) all the food on the advert looks just like the little plastic food you get in a childs cooking playtime set. really, look next time. its so plastic and fake!!
2)the slogan "eat fresh" couldnt be more ironic. one of the most unhealthy and dirty places is a subway.
3) the man voicing the advert is american. enough said.

anyway, i should go. i should be sitting in the lounge spending time with the family. in other words sitting in silence watching what ever dad wants to watch. pobably the bill. joy.

bye all xXx
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interrupted

2005-03-03T20:25:00.000Z

hey everyone, sorry i havent updated yet! ive been so busy. well thankfully in the end we didnt have to go clubbong for the second night, the tickets had sold out. instead we hung out in Dan's room, and were entertained by pat and dan wrestling. it was all fun and games until some ones special place got hurt. tut tut. during the day on saturday, me and hayleigh went into the centre of York to go shopping. i usually hate shopping, but it was so good to be with hayleigh, i didnt really care.
on sunday hayleigh had an interview with pizza hut, so i was on my own in her room for an hour or two. so i took advantage and played Keane really loudly on her laptop (pants!! just realised she has a huge cd player in her room!!) and packed, tidied up, and turned the posters the right way up again (apparently the guys pranked her room and turned them upside down. shes too lazy to put it right)
right, back now.
so where was i?? erm okay well she got back and we sat and talked for a bit, then we caught the bus and i got on the train and waved good bye to her. i had this lady siting opposite me who was nice, but really anoying!! i had my earphones in and i was reading a book, and yet she insisted on talking to me every few minutes, so id hav to stop my music, (KEANE!!!) put down my book, and answer some trivial quaetion about what i had been doin and seem interested when she told me stuff too. when shed finished i return to the book and music, and a few minutes later shed go again. grrr. thankfully i was only on there for an hour and a half, beofre i had to change trains. the train to bury was a bit.....cargo like really. bare, cold, dirty, lonely. so i sat facing the window readin and humming to keane, and getting more and more excited. when it got to 10 mins before arrival i packed everything away, and eargerly sat waiting to pulll in at bury. it seemed to take forever!! but we finally got there and when i stepped of the train, i was greeted by my gorgeous boyfriend and my mum. it was absolutely fantastic to see alex again. ahhhh, sigh!
nothing much has happened since then, not me me anyway. alex has found somewhere to live, and its even quite close to my house. soon he will be able to buy the van so we can see each other more after school and wont have to rely on my parents to take us everywhere. hes at samaratins at the moment, and for some reason ive really missed him today. more than usual. ive felt a little moody today,im not sure why, maybe im just tired.
cant remember if theres ne thing else i need to say, if i remember ill blog it next time. any way, i better go, got a bit of work i need to do. lotsa love xXx

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tired

2005-02-26T16:29:00.000Z

hey everyone, im at my sisters at the moment in york uni. got here yesterday and we went out clubbing, i didnt get to bed untill 4am. i hate clubbing any way so it was awful. a girl managed to get so drunk she could barely walk, when she got ion the bus home she fell onto the chair, and concussed herslf against the window. hayleigh spent the next few hours taking care of her and holding hair back for her :( she fell asleep evetually and hay came back and we ordered some pizza. we didnt get up this morning untill 11, and after breakfast/lunch we headed into town to get some random stuff. and only got back about 15 mins ago. i think the plan is to rest (i hope!!) then get some dinner. after that we're going to halifax college to meet some people and hay and her friends will then get really drunk, then we'll come back to this college for another party at the bar. this is gonna be painful. luckily ill be able to get away this time as its in the same college so i can just disappear at midnight.
i really really miss Alex, so badly. i cant wait to see him again. anyway, better go bye xXx

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Cosmic Thing (The B-52's)

2005-02-24T17:10:00.000Z

hey everyone, so sorrry i havent blogged for a while, its been so busy!! most nights of the half term i had copocobana rehersals, and i got to Alex a whole twice :( on valentines day he came round and i gave him the card i made, and i cooked him a meal that went well. then on thursday we went out for a meal at lunch to celebrate our anniversary. and a while before we left i answerd the door and was faced by a ginormous bunch of flowers being delivered for me. what a sweetheart!!
unfortunately stupid stupid me managed to shut my finger in the front door as we were leaving for the meal. to begin with i didnt know what had happened, i just thought hmm the door bounced open and my finger has gone completely numb. i then looked at my finger, and the bottom half of my nail was bleeding underneath my nail. i just though, o shite thats gonna kick in any second now. and it did. it bloody hurt! dad told me to put it under cold water, but on doing so it bacme so excrushiating i couldnt bear to do it. so i just bit my lip and left the house. by the time we reached the restuarant, my finger had swollen, and the bottom of the tip was literally visabley throbbing.
but nothing could spoil the meal. every second was perfect, i had a wonderful time. and now its under 6 months till we celebrate 1 year!! yay!

the show went really well, nothing went wrong with me, so yay! Alex, my dad, my sis, uncle mark and a family friend Mo came to see the last performance. they all said it was fantastic, and im soooo glad i didnt fall over.

and tonight i will soon start packing. im going up to york uni friday lunchtime to spend the weekend with my sister. although im looking forward to it, and seeing her again and meeting all her friends (all of them boys! theres something wrong with that girl) im still not looking forward to some parts of it all. i have to get a train, and change once all on my own. a thing never before done by me, i havent really been on trains much. then ill be all alone on the train, i have such a short attention span ill never keep myslef amused for 3 hours!! then im about 200 miles away from Alex. thats gonna be hard. im gonna miss him sooo much, can you die from missing some one??

anyway i better go start. ill leave a blog as soon as i can once i get back. take care everyone xxx

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Told You Adam-ha!

2005-02-15T15:55:00.000Z

well well, today at work was lightened momentarily this afternoon! i had a rather quiet man buying a large shop come to my till. he didnt say any thing, until he saw my Keane badge i wear at work (never any place you cant advertise!!). his eyes suddenly lit up and asked if i had seen them, as obviously i had. he told me he works in the music industry for one of the big producers (he didnt say which one). he said that for a while there has bee a huge dip in music in pure talent, until Keane had arrived on the scene. he told me that they were just pure talent, that Tom had the best voice he has heard for a long time. he said not only is his voice smooth but he has a great pitch, he can hold any note for a long time and he has a sensitivity in his voice that enchants you. he then said something i have been saying for a long time to many people. he said :" Keane aren't fantastic from opinion, it is a well known fact in music. theres no opinion involved." well, imagine the smile on my face!! he went on to repeat what he had already said twice more in shorter ways, and then told me once again, that Keane are amazing, before leaving.
i swear i didnt make this up, but i do wish i had asked who he worked for and if he'd met them!! damn me and my slow brain!!
and yay, alex is coming over tonight after he's finished work. i borrowed Team America from one of my mates, so will watch that.
the meal yesterday (as you've probably heard from Alex's blog) went really well. i was so relieved. i didnt burn ne thing and it was all cooked okay. it even tasted how it was supposed to- bonus!! Alex got me the cutest cushion in the world! its a red heart cushion, and last night i cuddled it as i fell asleep. its so comfy!! he alo made me a card, which was really sweet. we had a great day, i wish we cood do it all over again!!
im gonna try and get some philosophy work done now, so bye everyone xXx

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A Day Like Today (Keane)

2005-02-12T20:05:00.000Z

YAY!!!! Keane won TWO Brit awards!! o yeah!!! who rules!! they won Best British Breakthrough Artsist and the main award, the Best Album. and it was so cute, coz they were up against lotsa other gd bands so they totally weren't expecting it, and when they sadi their name, Tom just kinda sat for a second, then realised and stood up sshouting "oh F*uck!!! f*ck!!" and was very sweet. they also performed everybodys changing at the beginning of the show, and as usual were amazing! mum decided she likes Tom's figure. she said she likes his tallness and his legs are really long. weird. i just love his hands (and his voice obviously), but seriously, nexttime you see keane, loook at Tom's hands, they're magnificant. only one pair of hands beats them...ill give you one guess whos hands they are!
anyway, i got my hair ut today and styled differently, its cool. cant wait for alex to see it!!
i have rehersals from 1-9.30 tomorrow :( boring!! but after, alex is coming over and staying the night so he's here on valentines day :D yay!!
im off to get a shower and go to bed.....yes i know its early but i have a busy week coming up and im already shattered. so, night xXx
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ajnrifnkdhyrg

2005-02-11T14:19:00.000Z

oh my god. im dying, slowly. me and alex just did rode 9 miles!!! bare in mind i havent ridden at all since last summer, and that was only to the local shop, not exactly hard! annoyngly after we got home, there was me collapsing against the wall and alex was standing there as if he'd walked a meter, if that!
it was great fun though, we (I) struggled to a spot a few miles away, and in the middle of nowhere, and we sat under a tree and had some lunch. it was so peaceful. i could have stayed there all day if i wasnt so cold :(
anyway, will say more later, off to watcha filmy. xxx

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Hold On (Good Charlotte)

2005-02-07T19:14:00.000Z

not much to say really. i bought a bike yesterday :) its really nice, tho im sure alex will still be disappointed by it. it was on sale as it was in a sale (duh!) but also one of the last of its type. its red and black, used to be £300, but i got it for £80. go me. its got front and seat suspension (finally i wont have to brace myself and hold my stomach in place when i go down kerbs!) and has a shock absorber (apparently). i got some lights and mud guards for it too, i have a feeling ill be riding a lot more this year, and the road to alexs isnt too clean. i cant wait :)
after that i had rehersals for6 hours only 2 and 1/2 of which i was in. but we had to stay because my mum was in them. i made some new friends tho at least! one of thems called charlotte, what a cool name!
ive felt really ill all day which has been great fun as you can imagine. but it was worth it to see alex again. i cant describe how much i missed him over the weekend. i miss him now, even tho im talking to him.

today would have been my Nana's 70th birthday. Unfortunately she passed away 6 years ago. happy birthday Nana, i love you xXx

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Forsaken (David Draiman)

2005-02-05T20:27:00.000Z

hmmm mixed feeling tonight. its very confusing.

im worried about alex. stuff has been pretty bad for him at the moment, and its getting worse. if you have read his blog, you will probably have worked out that someone is committing identity fraud on him. even worse, its one of his supposed friends. why?? who knows.
today even more junkmail came through, and something else rather significant too.
its not really for me to say too much about the whole situation, but to be honest, i dont just feel worried and concerned for alex, and the stress this is giving him. i feel hugely disappointed. im disappointed because this person is someone i used to respect and really like. but now because of this, i have very little respect for them at all. its such a childish thing to do, and causes so much hassle for alex. to be honest, if it were me id feel ashamed of myself.

but at least its the holidays soon. even though i wont see alex much, the time we're going to spend together will be very special -valentines day, and our 6 month anniversary. i cant wait!!!
i love you so much alex, i cant wait to be with you for the rest of my life.

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TOTP

2005-02-03T19:08:00.000Z

hey everyone, i dont really have anything to say, jus wanted to tell you that Good Charlotte are supposed to be on TOTP tomorrow. just in case any one wants to pretend to care :)
love me xXx

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A Single Red Rose

2005-02-03T13:35:00.000Z

hey guys.

when Alex arrived at school this morning, he gave me a present. a red rose. he said it was a taste of things to come. what a sweetheart, no ones ever given me a rose before :D i love him so much

im currently at school, and i have no work to do, so i htought id blog instead :)
im in the main school library, and theres a gaggle of girls and a boy on the opposite side of the computer section. they are really really annoying. they're talking to each other at a volume that would make you think they were 300 meters away from each other, and every few minutes once of the tarty girls will scream very loudly as some one prods her. the count so far.....7 times in 35 minutes. grrrr. oop there goes another. i have to get out of here soon.
the lesson im in is ethics, but its a research lesson for a mock court case we're holding next week. we have to pretend to be one of the philosophists we've studied, and give their view on the case. the case im part of is about a married mother with four children. shes pregnant again, but cannot afford another child and cannot bear to give it up for adoption. the argument is to allow or stop abortion. i hold the position of a man called Joseph Fletcher, and i have to argue that it should be allowed, harder than you think considering murders illegal and you cant tell when a foetus becomes a human being. ive done the background of beliefs speech, and the speech to argue the case. easy.

on valentines day itself, alex is coming over to my house. im planning to cook him a proper meal. so far the meals ive cooked for him are pasta and jacket potatoes, toast and other simple things. this time its gonna be different. its going to be a real meal, posh, candles, music, and best of all, the house to ourselves. i cant wait, he's going to love it.

anyway, i have to get away from these stupid screaming tarts before i wring their necks.

oooo also, alex fixed my computer so i can now go online!! YAY!! ill be on all noght tonight. love to all xXx

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sorry!!!

2005-02-01T11:34:00.000Z

hey everyone, sorry i havent blogged for a while. my stupid dad broke the computer, and it wont be fixed for ages. its so weird not being able to go online and talk to all my friends. i feel really cut off. im currently writing this at school, which is the only way ill be able to blog for a while. this laso means i cannot check my emails, which is very frustrating.

i left a comment on alex's blog, which he put into a proper blog spot on his blog. i am not very good with words, and im worrried i said things that i couldnt say in the right way.

its alexs and mine 6 month anniversary on the 17th of feb!!! yay!!! we're going out for a meal, at lunch time. all through half term week i have rehersals for Copocabana in the evening, and alex is working most days, so ill only see him twice during that week :(

anyway, im not in a writing mood right now, so im gonna go. bye xXx

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cant think of a title!!! lalalalalala

2005-01-22T18:51:00.000Z

hey everyone.
erm not much to say, but yay Good Charlotte were on TOTP on friday, and they were surprisingly good!! i thought it may be a little dodgey because its a very high song, but Joely-woley did very very well and im so proud!!
2day on the way to LMA, i got a phonce call from my friend steve who lives in london. he was at tsunami appeal in cardiff, and foned me so i cood hear TITLT (keane) live!!! i only got to hear to the 1st chorus because he had no credit, but it was fantastic. then it was shown on tv at 6pm 2nite, and i didnt think to record it till it was all over so im kicking myself now!!!
get to spend most of the day with alex tomorrow (heheheheyayayayayayayayayayayay!!!!!!) cant wait, i missed him today.
anyway, erm nothing left to say and i cant type today, this has taken me ages to write coz my fingers dont wanna seem to hit the right keys, grr!! any way, byesey!! xXx love you alex

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booorrrinnnggg

2005-01-19T10:15:00.000Z

hey guys, at skool, 'revising' for the general studies exam today. just found out its the actual AS exam, i though it was a mock. stil, never mind.
im eating a realy sour apple, it tatses like a lemon, but not in the nice way that lemons do, because i know its not supposed to!!! why cant people sell the perfect apple for me?? everyone else has found theirs!! i want a crunchy red and juicy sweet one. perfection!
alex just came in, and gvae me a drink of FANTA!!! everythings fantastic!! de-duh-dum!!
anyway lesson almost over,.....wish me luck byesey!! xXx
love you alex :D

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Screamer (Good Charlotte)

2005-01-17T21:07:00.000Z

hey everyone. not much been going on unfortunately. alex is currently at Kirsty's Bday meal/party eatin squid-errrggggg!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRSTY, best wishes honey!!! i really miss alex lol, how pathetic is that! i havent seen him for.....4 hours!! o dear!
im off to bed pretty soon...im shattered, and alex must be too! last night i woke up at about 1am in lots of pain, and coodnt get to sleep. my abdomen felt like it was gonna explode every few seconds- girls will know this feeling, the one that makes u double up, and makes u feel nauseous too. it was really bad and continous with waves of really intense pain. so i called alex, not really sure what else to do, and spent about an hour on the fone. he got some advice from some one and there wasnt any thing i could do except ride it out. it was so horrible, and i feel really bad about keeping alex up too, must have been awful!! :( so afta a while it seemed to ease up so i took the opportunity to fall asleep, hoping that id sleep through ne more pain. luckily i did, until half 6, and knew i woodnt be able to get decent sleep in the half hour b4 my alarm went off, so i spread out on my bak and dozed. it was great.
then at quarter past 7, i was sitting in my room eating breakfast, and alexs house fone rang my mob..so of corse i picked it up in the usual was i do with alex- "hello babbly!!!" but was kinda shot down at hearing his sisters voice. she said "whos this??" and i sed "me!! why who's this!!" and she goes "oh i got the wrong number" and hung up-weird!!!
so i was a little warey when 15 minutes l8er it rang again, tho it was my babbly this time :D
alex looked afta me all day, getting worried at any slight look of discomfort and was determined to make sure i was perfectly content all day. hes so lovely!!!i dont know what i did to deserve him, must have been something phoenomenal!!

got home, and went to my piano lesson, which was really hard!! :( im currently working on a peice thats relatively easy for my grade, its just very good for independent fingering (whoah thats dodgey!!). my left hand doesnt like co-operating, so im trying to work it harder so its stronger and im less restricted. well the easy song, suddenly got really hard!! it jumps about from place to place i havent a clue what to do!! grrr i will not be beaten!!
when i got home i carried on with PoP2, got past the bit i reached with alex....a big huge robot demon thing called a Golem, quite difficult to beat, u have to hav lotsa life to ensure u make it! and carried on 2day, and now im in a huge...i mean absolutely ginornous room which is a tower with cogs and wheel and all sorts. i can only just about see the other side of the room its so big!!
any way....im doind all this stuff and theres new demons to fight...and theyre horrible!! the scariest yet, the other have just been men and ninja's nothing terrifying (tho the Golem wasnt exactly a happy experience). but these things are just like the warewolves on Van Helsing. they have spikey fur on their backs, they crawl, but look as if they shood be standing up. huge claws and teeth, and they crawl along walls and upside down too. and theyre hard to kill, they tend to just jump down in front of you making me jump out of my skin, and they take a huge bit of u b4 u really register that theyre there!! yuk!! scarey!! fought another huge Golem thing, and more warewolf demons and then had had enough and went online.
and now its later than i planned, so im off to get a shower and then staright to bed :) nite nite xXx

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maps (Keane)

2005-01-15T12:19:00.000Z

hey, wow i havent written for ages, trouble is i cant remeber if anything has happened!!
i was watchng TOTP saturday this morning (a rare thing!!) and i turned it on just at the pint when they get some one to do with music to listen to 3 new singles and say which one is the best.....this week was Good Charlotte, POP and thirteen sense...and G.C won it (get in, o yeeah, go G.C, its your birthday....uhumm o yeah!!) im very proud. also they will be on TOTP next friday, along with Doves if anyones interested!!
keane are one of thebands that are singing to raise money for the tsunami appeal, go them!
alex is comeing over tomorrow once i finish work, and hopefully we're gonna watch eight-legged freaks, i finally got it bak a year afta hayleigh lent it to one of her friends!! i cant wait to watch it with the commentary again, sounds weird i know, but its so funny and i miss it. they encourage children to play with hot glue guns! genious!

o yeah prince of persia stuff. as you probably know i got it for xmas. its fantatsic, although it scares the pants off me!!! i recently got to a point that i couldnt get past. it was a final battle with the lady in black, and she just wont die!! it literally would get to the point that shed hav a millimeter of life left, but no matter what i did she wouldnt die the bitch!! i seeked lots of help from the official website, and fanclubs and noone seemed to be having the same problem, so i assumed it was a glitch. but when my friend came ova, i was determined to show her it was impossible, and half way through killing her remembered something i had read somewhere about it. b4 this pointi had never known how to do this one thing......the one thing that kills her apparently. i coodnt work out how to attck in a way that wood lead to a bit where the 2 characters lock swords, and you have to over power her, so he can then attck her. well i found how to do it, and after several sword locks she was dead!! mwuahahahahahahahahahahahaha!! burn evil bitch hahaha!
so carrying on the game, getting very frightened at many points and having to pause it to will myself on, i get to a bit where a cut scene of the Dahaka breaks through a wall near to you. the Dahaka is an IMMORTAL creature (and looks ver very much like the Balrog in LOTR that pulls gandlaf down with it in the mines or morria) and he is the reason you are playing the game. this creature is going to kill you, and you are trying to change your fate so you dont die. in this one he can time travel to and from the past and present.
so anyway, this immortal creature breaks through a wall, but the prince hides behind some rubble so he doesnt see you. shortly after, theres another cut scene where the prince says something like " the dahaka has found me here, hes found me.."and then it bursts out of the wall behind you. the next bit is that you have to run away very very fast. i got to a few seconds before i died. gd job really i was terrified!!
i will try and see if i can get any further beofre having a heart attack!
better go lotsa stuff to sort out, xXx

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Take My Hand (Me)

2005-01-06T18:04:00.000Z

hey everyone, ill try to keep this shortish, but no promises!
i had the most fantastic day ever on tuesday!!! me and alex went down to london to see the shark he adopted for me for xmas! it was so cool!!!
him and his dad picked me up at 8am and we set off for a long journey! we started off well, playing two different kinds of top trumps- shark ones and LOTR ones, brilliant fun!! we parked up in a place outside london and got a train in, and the unerground-which was really scarey and poo!! especially when it rocked from side to side.
his dad left us at trafagar square, and we tooksum pictures and had some food, before making our way through london and over the thames bridge. we arrived really early at the london eye, we had tickets that said flight was at 1pm. but we went early coz i was really impatient. the fligth was fantastic, so amazing. the 1st time i went i didnt like it coz i was bored with my boring family, but this time was different.
we ha some lunch in a nice little lunch bar/cafe type place, and then almost ran to the aquarium!! it was so exciting, once we were inside it was so brilliant!! we saw lots fish and exoctic creatures, and alex stroked a ray in the open pool. then we turned the next corner and there was a huge window leadin into an enormous tank. there were loadsa ppl crowded round, and i just glipmsed a shark, unmistakeably a sandtiger shark. i think i may hav screamed a little, or made some other sort of loud noise! after a while we somehow managed to get right to the front. there were 2 huge sandtigers in the tank, 3 brown sharks and 2 nurse sharks, one of which was florence, my sharky!! she was beautiful. nurse sharks are fantastic, theyre really dosile, unless provoked!! she swam around the bottom now and again, and sat on the bottom resting with the other nurse shark. the keepers fed the sharks while we were there too, it was really cool, such an experience. at one point, the biggest of the sandtigers, was at the window right in front of me. a fish was dropped down right in front of it, and i watched as the whole of its body tensed into itself, and lunged forward grabbing it and swallowing it whole (to be fair it wasnt a very big fish!). i turned the other way just in time to see a brown shark with a huge peice of meat in its mouth, and as it swam away, it furiously shook it to break it up. it was magnificant.
after a few hours in there, we decided it was time to go outside again. we planned to walk to buckingham palace, but when we got to the the road that leads to it, it stretched on forever, so decided not to. instead we walked slowly through a park, with a river and geese, and lotsa pretty trees. suddenly we realised we were somehow at buckinham palace!! so we went and got some more pics and then headed back through the park again. we walked really slowley and just cherished every second together.
we met alexs dad at the houses of parliament and got the underground and train back to the car and then home. i was home exactly 12 and 1/2 hours afta i left. it was the best day ever, i cant believe it really happened!! i have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world!

i started writing a song, its calle Take My Hand (hence the blog title). ive never written a song before, and its really hard. i worte the lyrics in wednesdays ethics lesson, it was really weird. i just started writing, wasnt thinking about what i was writing, i just did it. it took about 3 minutes, and suddenly i realised id written a whole song. i started working on the melody yesterday and today. but i i dont want to think about how hard its gonna be putting the piano to it!!
anyway, i hav to go, byesey people xXx

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Christmas By The Phone (Good Charlotte)

2005-01-03T04:47:00.000Z

This is a serious blog now...an issue that is close to my heart and i feel compelled to write about it. All of you will know that i love Good Charlotte, and most of you are always giving me stick about it, i dont care. but if any of you want to bad mouth or critise them again, please keep what i am about to write in mind.
If any one has got this weeks issue of Kerrang, you will notice that Good Charlotte are on the front, and inside a huge interview with them about christmas. i would like to share a couple of the questions, answers and commentary by kerrang written in this interview for anyone that has not got it.

Joel: " My dad left on christmas. one year on christmas eve he just walked out. it was right on christmas eve, and my mom started crying really bad. she left too. she took my sister to my aunts house and left us [joel and benji] alone at home. my brother had run away at that point too and he wasnt coming back. we were just sitting in the house on our own, it was all dark and we were only 15. we didnt know what was going on and we were stuck there together...it was really depressing"

so, were things okay by the next day or were you still on your own?

Joel "no, it was still the two of us..." Benji: "believe it or not, at the time, we had been through so much that we were emotionally numb to it all. we were just empty" Joel: " We didnt even cry or anything. i had stopped crying a year before that"

something kerrang says just after this bit :

'talking about being about being abandoned by their parents on christmas eve is one of these things [ things that upsets them]......Benji leaves and takes a few minutes out in the restroom, then returns, looking a little more together about the situation. Joel sits defiantely, as if challenging you to call him a pussy for caring about all this, for showing emotion when, all his life, he's tried not to let on how hurt he was'

and one last bit, something that may help some people out there going through bad situations.

would you be able to live through a christmas like that again?
Joel :" it's hard.....i would tell a 15-16 year old kid going through a hard time that you can't look back, it's hard and you've got some shit to deal with, but you're the only person who can make it change. You can only do that by working. no-one is going to give you anything. you're not going to get anywhere by sitting around and feeling sorry for yourself"

this just shows that these people are just normal people, they arent guys that have been brought up in a rich family. in fact they grew up with one parents and in a house that was almost unlivable, in a very poor part area maryland. they have worked very hard to get where they are now and i think they deserve some respect. i also know that after that christmas eve, their father never came back and they never saw him again. Joel tried to contact him 2 years ago but he replied that he didnt want any thing to do with them.
i wish the best of luck to Joel,Benji and the rest of G.C for the future, i believe they more than deserve it

xXx

Let Me Go (Good Charlotte)

2005-01-03T03:13:00.000Z

yay new years was so cool. i spent the whole day, the night and most of the next day at alexs house with him! we watched loads of films and had such a cool time. it was fantastic to be woth hom for so long, i never wanted to let go of him.

tuesday we're going to london for the day to go on the london eye and see the shark that alex adopted for me :) yay i cant wait, im so excited!!!

work was pants as usual, tho i got to talk and catchup with kerry-yayness!!

erm i cant think of ne thing else to say, theres prob summit really important ive forgotten. poo!

byesey xXx

Cold (Static-X)

2005-01-01T15:48:00.000Z

well well, happy new years everyone!!! i hope u all had wondeful evenings! i did. i stayed over alexs house, and had such a good time. we just sat watched films and played games the whole time, it was brilliant-my idea of heaven, tho there was a lack of chocolate (as i failed to bring a suficient amount to last me more than 10 mins), and of course live music provided by keane/good charlotte- but at least that ones not my fault!
it was really fantastic to just sit/lay there with alex for so long....just to hold him in my arms for so long was amazing. i had the best time.
right now, im sitting in the spare room, tihnk ing of alex at samaratins saving lives and being there for ppl he doesnt even know and will never meet....hes amazing isnt he! i have a curious pain in my left side, just about the place my left kidney would be if it were at the front of my body, and not the back. its a dull throbbing pain, and its annoying me...painkillers at the ready!
and as the name of this entry suggests, i am rather cold, so i will be going from this room now!
bye xXx

More Matey (Keane)

2004-12-31T17:58:00.000Z

hey everyone, just a quick blog as i am waiting for my dad to get p so he can drive me to alexs house! thats right, for the first time....ever, some1 other than a family member is going to alexs house. its very exciting! Jan and his sisters are away, so itll be just me and his dad. ive got loadsa films and ps2 games packed. its our 1st new year 2getha :)
went to the cinema with the parents and my sister last night, me and hayleigh went to see 'Garden State', if any of you ever watched the channel four series 'scrubs', ul remember the main character J.D, played by Zach Braff. well this film was written, dir4ected and starred him as the main role. described as a clever drama comedy, to be honest i wasnt too excited. it turned out to ber excellent though! the 2nd lead was played by natalie portman (padmae and queen amadala in the new star wars) she was fantastic. a half mental character, she was really good. definately one to see if you get the chance!
but i was still left very jealous when mum and dad came out from seeing house of flying daggers. it sounds like its everything i imagine it. dad said it was beautiful, and very very good. mum even managed to stay awake even though she had to read subtitles....it must have been gd!(this is the women that fell asleep during the battle in LOTR:TTT, at helms deep, and we tried to watche shrek 1 twice at home, she fell asleep just after they reach lord farqouts?? kingdom, both times!!)
anyway, sounds like dads up, so im off bye. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!!!

call me what you like (Keane)

2004-12-28T02:11:00.000Z

well as predicted 2day was just as fantastic as i thought. i managed to stop mum helping me sort out my room, as thereby killing 2 birds with one stone so to speak, because she watched all the house shows they recorded. hayleigh will be home soon, so even more joy!(o wait, u cant hear voice tones on here....well its very sarcastic) ive had a sore throat all day, i hope im not gonna get ill!!!
i miss alex so much, i cant wait till 2morro, hes comin over and we're gonna watch van helsing :) i cant wait, i just want to hold him. i dont think im gonna let go of him 2morro. waiting for him to get home and fone me now, i havent spoken to him all ay, cept for a few txts. i miss him so much :( how gay is that, answer: very!!!
any way i better go and spread my joyful bad mood round to other ppl xXx

The Day That I Die (Good Charlotte)

2004-12-27T21:29:00.000Z

well, today is gonna be so.........whats the word? ill let you decide, heres todays plan. afta lunch, try to convince my mother to let me tidy my room by myself (gos knows im bloody old enough), tidy my room properly-the kind where i have to actually empty drawers and sort out every space i have into order of some kind, following them gd few hours i have to spend "quality" time with my mum and dad which will be sitting on the lounge floor as mum and dad watch every single house improvement, moving homes, loation and decorating houses shows theyve recorded for the past couple of months. i think i will try and slip into a coma of boredom for safety! after that a nice family meal where we will discuss such pleasant things like how messy my room always is, i shood be doin ne hw i have instead of having ne sort of fun, i shoodnt be spendind so much time watching the dvds and plying the ps2 games that the parents actually got me for xmas and how i always look scruffy. sounds great right?
of course then itll be the return of my delightful sister, who will be very tired from working all day and will use ne excuse she can to be nasty to me as she knows i wont bother fighting bak. 2morro she will blame me for not waking her up after her alarm went off and she fell bak to sleep in her room. believe me, shes done it twice b4!
well then, i spose i betta get cracking, lets hope this day is better than the one i had planned with alex, or i will not be happy at all.

crisis

2004-12-27T18:20:00.000Z

just realised, i didnt recieve any chocolate as a present for xmas this year!!!! o dear god!

wonderful xmas :)

2004-12-27T06:17:00.000Z

wow wot a fantatsic xmas!! all morning was dragged out by the fac t i coodnt wait for alex to come over. he wasnt allowed over until after the xmas dinner! grrr. so the moment i finished i foned him and he rushed over :)
i got really cool stuff thi year, u know most of the time, you get a few gd presents, and the rest are things that ul never use. well not this year!! from the parents i got spiderman2 dvd, elf dvd, Prince Of Persia 2: warrior within, some prfume, body spray, and a bottle of moisturiser that i always always use and a few other tings. hayleigh got me the Jimmy Carr live dvd (hell yeah!!) and a new really posh hair brush. i got Van Helsing on special edition dvd from my uncle (score!!) i got some vouchers from aunties, a bag from another auntie. and then it got to a present sent from my grandparents. i thought...great some money, or chocolate, a jumper or something else cute and grandma-ish. it was, in fact, a red sillk thong, with a triangle of diamonds at the point just above ur ....bum crack.... i spose is the way to say it. and also a boots gift card. what is the world coming to!!!
i gave alex my stocking full of pressies for him which included things like dvds, choc, practical jokes (to play on his sisters) bk, face things, lynx stuff and other goodies. and he gave me the most fantastic present. he adopted me a shark for a year!!! omg!!! shes a nurse shark called Florence, and shes soo pretty!! i have a photo in a frame of her, and a certificate in a frame, and a paack of stuff bout her. we're going down to london together on tues 4th jan to the london aquarium so i can see her, and even goin on the london eye aswell!!!! i cant wait!! i cant belive im going to the london aquaruim!!! its got the biggest number of sharks in captivity in the UK!! OMG!! maybe theyll even have Blue sharks??
im gonna hav to brave the underground though. ive only been on it twice before, its really scarey. im claustrophobic, so a crowded tiny carriage plunging into a tiny drak hole underground is very sacrey for me. to make it worse, im also scared of the dark lol
but im so excited i dont care!!! alex wil be there with me, so im sure i wont be scared at all. yay cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
any way, too much typing 2nite, so bysey xXx

I Dont wanna stop (Good Charlotte)

2004-12-27T05:27:00.000Z

well well, finally have the time to write about the ball!!! i spose ill start at the beginning and work from there :)
the day b4 the ball, tuesday, i had the most wonderful surprise. alex was over, and he told me he had a surprise for me...i just assumed it was a present of some. just b4 lunch, he said, 'right, ill be bak in 2 minutes'............20 minutes later he returned. i had been forbidden to leave the lounge, so coodnt even investigate into his disappearance. so, alex came back into the lounge, followed by jenny....and then, almost in slow motion, they parted, and in walked Fiona. (for anyone that doesnt know, fiona is my bestest friend. she moved away to north york at the beginning of the summer hols..and i havent seen her since, though we talked regularly) i was so shocked i actually coodnt do anything. i hugged her for ages, but coodnt speak or smile or cry...i was just frozen. she stayed for a few hours, b4 her and jenny went bak to jennys house. fiona was going to the ball too!
the day of the ball i had my hair appointent at 12 noon , and it took just over an hour, and invovled 2 people to do it at one point. the end result was magnificant! i dont know if i can describe it, it was up and intricately woven into itself so it looked like a sea of brown silky worms on the bak of my head. it was beautiful!!
i managed to wait until half 5 b4 i started my makeup, which didnt take too long. i had silver glitter eyeshadow, put blck eyeliner aling the top eyelid with an elegant flick to each side. i just had time to climb into my dress and put my jewelry (which included a £400 ring that was my nanas...i was very scared of loosing it, but mum insisted i wore it) and tiara,and my yummy, sparkly shoes!! and then alex arrived... the moment id been waiting for...i was actually shaking with excitement. i could hear him twalk through the house and stop to talk to my parents in the kitchen...it seemed to take a lifetime b4 he finally came into the lounge where i was waiting. but when he finally did, it was worth all the waiting in the world. he was stood there in a gorgeous tux, hair all spikey and shiney shoes. he looked like he was on the way to a film premiere in New York. he looked just......stuning.
and judging by his reaction, he liked me in my dress. o yeah, my dress!! its a light sky blue, with silver sheen to it. it was very tight, it cut straight across my chest, and had one single strap each side. it came out at my hips, into a typical ball gown look. the back was the best though!! it was lowcut, and the zip came o just about my waist. at the top of the zip is two peices of material on each side, that tie together over the top of the zip, and the material flows down the rest of the dressss.... its really elvish!!
right any way, bak to the important bits. emma, jack, claire, james, dick and tor turned up on time, and we had bout 15mins to take photos and talk. poor claire wasnt very well, and james was almost dying bless him. hope ur well u guys! the limo turned up a little late, but it was fantastic. it was beautful, ver posh! inside was just how u imagine a limo, tvs, radios, cd players. drinks, flashy lights etc. although it was a little scarey at first not being able to see out, i enjoyed it thoroughly...well done alex!
we arrived 15 mins late, but at least we got an entrance!!! everyone ther looked stunning. it was brilliant. we lasted the time it took us to sit, talk for 4 mins and eat food, b4 we rushed to the dance floor. we had a huge swing band playing live for it, and they were fantastic! i love swing music, and they played all but 1 of my fav swing songs! alex is quite a mover! he can dance the night away...and did!!
fiona and jenny looked fantastic! jenny was in a red dress, fiona was in a black dress, she looked stuning. really beautiful.
and then the time i had been waiting for, for 3 yrs finally came. my first slow dance with alex saggers. this was the moment i got in trouble for in maths when i was caught day dreaming about it and didnt know the answer. and you know what.......it was more wonderful than anything id imagined. every aspect of it was hundreds more times fantastic than i had dreamt (except there was an absence of smokey haze in the background, and there was no falling glitter!)
even though my feet were very sore from dancing so much, everytime i sat down, at least 1 dnk person staggered over to me to tell me i looked lovely, and that they loved me. always followed by the rather obvious " im a bit pissed"...well duh! i didnt even talk to most of them!!
before i knew it we were about to leave. at some point of the night i had managed to get my big toenail ripped halfway up my toe....painful. very painful. but i coodnt miss my last dance with alex...so i didnt. i had to say goodbye to fiona again, which took all my strength and will power not to cry or run bak to see her one last time b4 we walked out the door. when i said goodbye, she whispered into my ear as we hugged, that she missed me. i told her i missed her too, very much, and told her i loved her. i love you fiona, i miss you everyday.
and so me and alex departed and he walked me to my doorstep. that was the most magical day of my life, all thanks to alex. so thanku baby, you make me so happy.
xXx

XMAS TIME

2004-12-25T17:02:00.000Z

hey guys, i apologise right now for not writing about the ball yet, i will...its gonna be long tho, and right now i have a bout 3 mins b4 mum comes in and busts me for not helping peel vegetables!!
ne way, happy xmas every1!!!! i really qish u all a very merry xmas, and i hope you have a fantastic day!
i cant wait for alex to come over, hopefully at about 2 or 3, but kowing my parents, the xmas dinner will take about 3 hours more than it really shood! i hope he likes the pressies i got for him!!!! ne ways, have a great day, will catch up on the ball soon as i can xXx
thought for this blog: 60% of emergency cases in hospitals, at this time of year, is from x,as trees falling down onto pl (tehehehe)

ballballballball

2004-12-21T17:08:00.000Z

thats right, ballballballballballballballball ballballballballballballballballballballballball time!!! almost there!! yay!!!
i woke up really early coz i was so excited, i went to have my hair done at 12, took an hour and cost £30!!! luckily i wasnt paying tehehehe! it looks so amazing, much better than i imagined it to look! ive bin doin my nails all throught out the day, they're silver, with blue stars in the end of each one, the colours seemed to go well together.
alex will be here at 7, cant wait to see him and his face when he sees me all dressed up. arg foods ready bye x

Return to self-loathing (MEST)

2004-12-20T04:05:00.000Z

hey everyone. just finished painting my nails for the ball on tuesday!! argg!! im sooooo excited!!
alex came to see me at work today, which was soo cool. it really cheered me up :) hes cuin ova 2morro morning really early so we can spend the whole day 2getha, im loking forward to that coz we've bin so busy this week i havent really spent much proper time with him. i cant wait to just sit and have him hold me in his arms.
im bout to download msn all ova again coz dad is havin one of those times that he feels he must tamper with things, so rebooted the whole comp, deleting everything on here. luckily i knew he was going to so managed to save my music and work onto cds :)
hayleigh came home from uni, its so nice to see her. yesterday morning (her 1st morning him agen) i ran into her room and snuggled up at the bottom of her bed amnd cuddled her feet until she got up. i think she secretly liked it.
im off now to load stuff and sit here with a springy xmas hat on (yay)
byes xXx
thought for this blog : Beethoven as def when he wrote fur elise (wow)

complicated (Good Charlotte)

2004-12-18T01:32:00.000Z

hey peeps, 2day was cool! it was fancy dress day, so i made a dress, and i was Thumbelina. every1 that dressed up looked fab!! lois looked gorgeous in normal clothes, her hair looked different too!
Clair made me a scarf for xmas, it soooo lush!! its light blue and made of that soft soft baby kinda material, and its all stretchy, wel impressed that she made it!!
in psychology i totally whooped ass for the 1st half, alex wooda bin dead impressed!! we did a question thing and if u got the answer right mr Nacua gave u a packet of crisps (legend!!) i owned the class, and answered 5 questions coz no one knew them but me, and won 3 packets for it, go me :) we then played pictionary, i got 2 easy ones!!
the panto was afta lunch, it was fantastic. short, but veru crude, i dont think i stopped laughing. then we had doughnuts and hung out till home time.
my sis is comin home from uni 2nite, but her bus was half an hour l8, and so she missed the train. we wont be picking her up till bout 9, 2 hours afta we were goin to!
well thats it really, ball is in 4 days!!whooooooooooooooooooooooooo!! yayness love me xxx
thought for this blog : On average, 100 people choke to death on ball-point pens every year (stupid fuckers!)

2004-12-16T07:28:00.000Z

whoah so sorry i havent written for ages, i hav bin majorly busy!!! i cant remember ne thing thats happened really, so ill just start from 2day, and when eva i remember stuff that happened ill just fill it in!
right...2day!! erm, well i felt happier than i usually do fridays coz i hav work, but my poor lickle babby was really low all day. by lunch time he had developed a headache which got worse, and afta my last lesson, he met me and he now had a migrain and part of his vision had gone in a area, so he had a black spot that he coodnt see ne thing in. this made me terribly worried, and was dreadfully upset on the bus, but foned him soon as i had eate and he was feeling a little better. then when i got to work, he was tere at the door waiting for me!!! yayness, huge hugs all round!! i only had a minute or so with him b4 we had to part. i went inside feeling really happy, but really crap at the same time!! i no its really sad and stupid, but i just wanted to stay with him so much, i wept a litle as i walked through the store, but then yay...him and clair came in to shop, and came to my till. of corse alex stood giggling while i served the previous customers!
hayleigh just foned and we talked for a bit and she sed she lloved me (mega huge YAY!!) shes comin home friday for the 1st time since she went. we're havin a girly 2 days with each other to catch up and stuff :) tho it does mean i miss out on alex time (poo!!)
me and alex went to see balde trinity last night, i havent sin the other 2, but was infromed it didnt matta at all. it was great! so much fighting and violence and quite gory in places, my kinda film!!! it was really nice being with alex in the cinema, our first cinema thing. and theyll be plenty more!! im determined to make sure alex sees good films from now on and at the cinema too!! hmmm i wish i cood live at the cinema, thatd be cool!!
righ betta go, its l8 and im busy 2morro. i miss alex too :( so off to get a shower and then to bed to dream of him, so at least i wont miss him till i wake up again. and i hav a pic of him and me next to my bed, thanx to becci!!! trouble is it keeps distracting me, as i keep using my clocks light button to illuminate the pic. so i end up laying there for a couple of hours trying to get sleepy throgh all the distraction. then i always wake up in the night, 5 or 6 times normally, so then i get distracted then too!! damn him for being so utterly irristable and gorgeous!!! (mmmmmmm)
really really must go now, byes xXx
no thought for the day 2nite, i will edit this next time im on and put one here! hopefully no one will notice :)

meet my maker (Good Charlotte)

2004-12-03T05:27:00.000Z

hey everybody, sorry i havent written ofr.....a week!! cripes!!!
well alexs bday was great!! on his party, he and jen jen came to the door, and when i opened it, alex just froze, then quickly disappeared round the corner of the doorstep. i had chosen to be an actualy girl and wore a short yellow rar-rar skirt, and a pink &brown top. once he re-apperared, i saw he looked absolutely f*cking bloody gogeous!! we got into the car, and i gave him his 1st pressie... a voucher for karting. jen jen gave him a burtons £10 voucher and a lynx ift set (nice!!)
once there, we were greeted with a huge buffet, inlcuding cous cous, salmon, salads and other such posh foods!! 2 bands played, tho the only name i can remember is Oculus. it was at this point, alex took off his coat and i saw he was wearing a (bead) necklace, at which point i almost literaly melted into goo on the floor! i have a thing for necklaces (and backs) and he looked sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fit!!
Emma (Quince) did vocals for both, and she was amazingly fantastic. it was such a good set from both bands, tho i have to admit, although jimi was extremly in the first band, oculus just won the night for me....i love them! there was also a huge chocolate cake for alex, and lots drinks all round. the keane album was even put on at the end of the night in the pub (godd taste!)
right, now i always, always take a bottle of juice with me wherevei go, because something bad always happens without one. and stupid stupid unlucky me didnt have a drink near me in the short distance from the pub to the car park (bout 50 meters away, if that!), and so of corse i began to bloody choke and die! unfortunately wen eva im just gettin rid of a cold i get the worst tickly cough realy suddenly all the time, and thats wot happened. and of corse i panicked coz i coodnt breathe and hyperventilated a little and was almost sick! Jack, bless his heart, ran back to the pub and got me some water to stop me dying on the pavement, so all was well once again :)
me and alex crashed at emmas, and i was awoken by a rather dreamy lookin alex with a belgian hot chocolate (took me a while to realise i wasnt dreaming!) emma cooked us a huge fry up, which was fab and so yummy. then bak to mine (with a detour to alexs to pick up a film).
then off toLMA, and bak home, where i was spose top be coking a special meal for alex, and returned to find out the parents had already bloody done it for me! they both knew that i was gonna cook for me and him, and they decided they wanted the same meal, so did the whole thing. i was fuming inside, but there was nothing i cood do bout it so just left it. i instead took alex to my room and gave him his card and other pressie which was a double photo frame with 2 pics of us 2getha in it.
me and mum stuck a 1 and a 8 candle in the polish cake that we made for him (chocolate&digestive biscuit base, covered in melted chocolate) and sang to him tehehe. we watched 28 days later that evening, i still cant work out whether it was good or not :S
i then manged to use my child, youngest and favourite daughter charms to persuade (very easily!) mum to let alex stay the night, we gave the reason that she woodnt have to take him home and get cold as she was already ill enough. i went and woke alex up in the morning with a big huge huge :)
right, anything more that i nned to tell you??
o yes, me and alex went xmas shopping togeter 2nite, it was soo cool!! we got lotsa stuff sorted for pressies :)
also did a questionnaire thingy 2day for calir and alexs psychology hw, and it turns out that alex is the person i love and he is also my best friend. i answered all but one of the questions with alex...and i answerefd honestly too. he seemed extremly chuffed and happy bout it, and i didnt realise why unitl he explained wot it all meant.
right enoughwriting, i g2g bye everybody xXx
thought for this blog : (another ture one) Sex is the safest tranquiliser in the world. It is 10 times more effective than Valium

We Believe (Good Charlotte)

2004-11-25T17:55:00.000Z

hey everyone, im at school now, so this will be a short blog. crap time at work last night, customers are so Rude, i shouted at one of them in the end!
yay its alex's bday/xmas pary 2morro!! im gonna give him one of the presents at the party, and the other one on saturday (his actual party). hes cumin ova on sat, so ill cook him a meal :S hope i dont poisen him!!
well i guess i wont be able to blog until......sunday night probably, so have fun guys, lotsa love xXx
Thought of this blog: (True again!) 315 entries in the Webster's 1996 dictionary, were mispelled!! how ironic!

Jaded (Good Charlotte+Mest)

2004-11-23T04:39:00.000Z

hey peeps!
erk wot a weekend!! it was crap but great at the same time!! i managed to catch a stinking cold so felt absolutely awful all weekend. but it was great because alex came ova saturday to look afta me, and mum asked if he wanted to stay ova night!!! so he was ther all sunday too to look afta me. poor guy, this means not only has he sin me without makeup, but hes sin me without makeup and ill!!! hes one brave dudnow, being a hardcore ringer (LOTR fan), i am ashamed to say i watched harry potter 1+2 ova th weekend! im even more ashamed to say they were actully not quite as crap as i imagined them to be. i thought theyd be much more chilish and entertaining than they were, it was much more adult and dialogue than i thought.
i missed skool 2day, woke up and thought id died! but hayleigh (sister) came down from uni, in york, to get her braces taken off. its the 1st time we've sin her since she went to uni!! it was great fun, she got her hair cut and had her braces off and we went for sum food too. we talked and joked like we used to, i forgot how much i missed her. she even gave me a hug wen i met her off the train, and wen she went agen :)
im going to skool 2morro, today was almost unbarable without akex, i missed him so much, so cant wait to see him.
well, good bye for now xXx
thought fot this blog: (another ture one!!) "Formicophilia" is the fetish for having small insects crawl on your genitals.

Screamer (Good Charlotte)

2004-11-20T18:46:00.000Z

hey guys, cant remember wot i hav and havent told you now, so if u read sumit ive alredy put, just skip it and read on!
yesterday (friday) it was fancy dress at skool for children in need, and i went as a fairy-wench-angel. basically a blue corset, short balck skirt, bumble-beetights, and feather wings (borrowed from emma! thanx honey!!). alex was a pirate :) tehehe i like pirates...especially that one. alex came ova that evening and 'we had some fun' (alex will get that). and then to my extra delight, mum told me keane were gonna be on jools holland l8er that evening, so watched that. they were the 1st to perform, and they did everybodys changing. Tom wore the shirt he wore in the new This IS The Last Time video, and the same jeanes he wore when i saw them in concert!! yay!!! he has lovely hands....i always liked the vid to everbodys changing coz it has close ups of his hands, and last night you cood see them really well and they were beautiful!
me and alex are iff to my frend, russells, bday party tomight. its at his house, and shood be fun, but im quite worried wot russell is goin to do. he alredy thinks alex is gorgeous from just pictures, so wen he sees him hell just melt, and i no russ will be all ova him all night! i may hav to kick some but!
alex is working right now, but still online so i get to talk to him :) cant wait till he comes ova for 2nite...i miss him :(
ooo also found the new Good Charlotte video for I Just Wanna Live 2day. its sssoooooooooo funny!! all the band r dressed up in food costumes, Joel is a slice of pizza. the others inlcude carrot, hamburger, sweetcorn,strawberry.they get picked up off the street in these costumes by a rich man who makes them a band and they get really famous. the carrot tried to breakdance at a party and its so funny. then the pizza (joel!) takes 2 ladies away with him and has his wicked way with them, but feels bad about it the next day. eventually one way or another they all get arrested and their career is ova, and joel does a little pixie dance in his pizza costume which had me in fits of laughter.
anyway, none of u care bout that so ill shut up now.
im gonna go and dry my hair coz im cold :( bye every1s xXx
Thought fot this blog: (THIS ONE IS ACTUALLY TRUE!!) the longest word in the english dictionary is : pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis.....try saying that 5 times without taking a breath!!

Can't Stop Now (Keane)

2004-11-18T03:45:00.000Z

well, finally have time to tell u guys bout the Keane concert, even though you've probably heard all about it already! never mind...here goes:
alex came over at 9am that day, which was great coz i was awake from 5am anyway!! we watched sum films and just enjoyed each others company. jenny arrived at my house at 2 so us three just hung out until alex got picked up 15 mins b4 we left. very good plan, as it meant i was distracted the whole day, and barely thought about the fact that i would be seeing TOM CHAPLIN in real life!!!! the journey there we listened to Keane, naturally! and when we finally got there we were near the front og the queue!! yay!! me and jenny made frends with anouther girl who came on her own as her frends coodnt be bothered (retards!!), she was free standing, and me and jenny were seated in the balcolny. i wasnt too happy about that i admit, because if mum had let me get free standing, i would have ended up less that a meter away from Tom.....the man im obsessed with!! :*(
just before 7pm, after an hour and a half of waiting, our new frend decided she needed the loo and ran off, and just as she disappeared round the corner we got let in. even tho i tried to hold up the line a little, she didnt make it, so wood had to hav joined the back of the line down the next street....poor girl!!
to my joy, wen we got in and shown to our seats, the balcolny was really close to the stage so i foned alex immediately and rabbled about it. i wood be about 15-20 meters away from Tom (*sigh)
after another hour, the support act came on, called brendan benson, his band were called the Stiff Tisues (chuckle!!)
they were fantastic! unfortuantely, it turns out all the ppl except me and jen were too snobbish and horrible to even bother clapping...and there was me and jen dancing in our seats and cheering!
once they finished i dashed to the loo in case i lost all bodily functions when Tom came on stage! and another half an hour later, at 9.10pm, it all started!!
the background music stopped, but then nothing happened for about a minute (which is a long time when ur waiting!!) then the lights dimmed halfway, then nothing for 30 secs.....lights on stage went out, nothing for 30 sec...lights round us went out, nothing for 30 secs...and then keane styled music came on, and red strobe lights lit up the stage and drum kit. then it all stopped, and a man with a flashlight appeared at the side of the stage and you cood see a line of feet being led on, at which point the crowd went wild..i just sat in shcok and waited, i was shaking from head to toe...and realeised that i woodnt be able to stand up coz my legs decided to stop functioning!
any ways, the man with the torch exited the stage, and for about 10 secs we remained in complete darkness. then the beginning of 'cant stop now' boomed out (drums to ppl who dont no it0, and as the paino kicked in, the stage blasted with light, and there they were. Tom started singing instantly and i screamed as loud as my little lungs cood manage, then i burst into tears! it was just so phenomenal that i was lookng at Tom and he was really there in front of me.
the whole concert was amazing, tim spoke alot, and u cood hear that he still had the effects of the throat infection hes had for weeks, but luckily it didnt affect his singing wotso ever, in fact the song called 'she has no time' goes so high i find it difficult to do wel, yet he was walking round and barely making an effort and it was still perfect!! damn him
they did 3 new songs, one of which Tom accompanied himself on the piano and it was a beautiful sng that made me cry once more. they also did allemande, a b side to the very 1st single they eva released, and the other was their single to be released after TITLT there was also a point in snowed under, when Tom threw his arms out like an angel and white lights lit up behind him...wow! videos really dont do ne of the band justice...Tom is extremyl handsome in real life...and tall and slim, even his lickle chubby face is actually thinner than ud think, unless he lost weight during his throat infection??
towards the end they did somewhere only we know, and me and jenny got into the aisle with our banner and were cheerng and singing with a huge amount of screaming insanely loudly from me! then like out of my dreams, during the musical bit, he looked up at the balcolny and reached me and jenny,at which point i was goin crazy waving and holding up the banner. then u cood see him squint alittle, read it, then a huge grin spread across his face and he waved at the frantic me (i think he liked the fact it sed 'TOM YOU'RE AMAZING)...and then i screamed so loudly i felt my voice literally break and it was extremly painful...and then found i coodnt speak. they went off stage at that point, but we all made sucha racket they ran bak on, connected the wires bak up and played 2 more songs.
after them songs, tim and richard went off but tom stayed...he gets so happy that we all no the words bless him! he waved and smiled and clapped at us for a bit, and even pointed to our banner and waved at us again b4 leaving the stage with a huge grin!
i think thats all i need to say bout the concert, just the fact it was the better than i ever imagined!!! alex was on the fone to 3 of the songs, and heard the point when Tom waved at me and i broke my vocal chords...it still hurts even now!! so totally worth it tho!!
phew thats all the kenae stuff...but still room for a little marketing : This Is The Last Time is Keane's new brilliant single...out monday the 22nd november..b side is called she opnes her eyes. www.keanemusic.com :)
alex was totally sweet and bought me the ball ticket and hid it in my pencil case to find.....YAY!! we're goin to the ball :) he also left me a little letter hidden in my room for after the concert and told me where it was once i got home...it was very sweet!!! its his bday next saturday, cant wait to give him his pressies mwuhahaha
hes bin a bit down recently, and we had a chat about stuff on tuesday which seemed to help a little, he was bright cheery and happy again today...gorgeous as ever! unfortunately ive seemed to have come down with something :( at least i no alex will look after me :) i better go...this is way too much writing now.
bye all, well done if oyu read all that!! love me xXx
thought for this blog: in one 'sitting' the amount of elephants poo can weigh as much as 2 grown men! eww!

Snowed Under (Keane)

2004-11-16T02:56:00.000Z

well...it .......was.........amazing! I have absolutely no time to write much tonight, i have a huge essay in for tomorrow and its really difficult. i will try and leave a blog tomorrow at school to tell you about the concert. but just for now, TOM CHAPLIN waved at me twice, he seemed to like the banner!!! omg!!it was fantastic, i am not ashamed to admit, when they finally came on, and were lit up in white lights, i screamed as loud as i possibly could, and then burst into tears!!! will tell you the rest l8er
a little worried about alex too tonight, which made the piano lesson go shit and i cant concentrate on this bitch of an essay! i hope hes alrite. hes cumin ova tomorrow, so hopefully i can make him feel a little betta, i have a feeling my back massage may help a bit!
any way, really really behind now, bye every1 xxx
thought for this blog: dwarfs hate munchkins because munchkins are too short!!! crazy!

Can't Go On (Good Charlotte)

2004-11-13T20:12:00.000Z

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i see Keane 2morro!! its almost here...finally!!! im so excited, wow i still cant belive whats going to happen tomorrow!!! omg!!!
went on the website on thursday and there, in the news section, was some thing that made my heart stop.........it said "Keane gigs cancelled" turns out that Tom has still got his throat infection form touring round America, whcih was last month!! poor guy, must be awful for him! they had to cancel to the gigs on the 10th november....he was told by his doctor to stay in bed for a few days....things were not looking good! but i kept optomistic! then today, another post on the news section says that the rest did Tom the world of good, and he is all better so the cambridge (the one im going to) and another one i cant remember where it was tho! is still on! YAY!!! Go TOM!!!!
just been to ipswich to buy/sort out alex's bday pressie!! yay! cant wait now.....im going to town next weekend to sort out the 2nd part of it too. itll be so cool!!! hes at work now.......i miss him :( but im off to LMA later...maybe thatll take my mind off the absence of my better half...nope nothing will
right, betta go, lunch, finish banner and got to LMA to do! lotsa love xXx
Thought for this blog: howler monkeys are louder during mating season than screaming babies

motivation proclamation (Good Charlotte)

2004-11-12T02:36:00.000Z

hey every1....gee thanx for leavein comments :*(
yesterday alex was extremly excited and "sexually frustrated". but he was, as ever, completely gorgeous! my last lesson, he was waitin outside the door for me. i was right next to the door waiting to go out, wen the teacher sed we hadnt finished! so alex proceeded to open the door and, as quick as lightneing, pulled me out into the corridoor. he kissed me and then dashed off, while i was left slinking bak into the classroom, unsuccessfully, and had to explain i was pulled from the room. luckily miss hampton was really happy that lesson!!
today was gd too, spent alot of time with alex :) and even managed to fall asleep twice while leaning on him during a free period in the afternoon. although when i woke up, there were 2 or 3 ppl awwing over me in my slumber...which was a surprise!
my best m8 jenny was uspet 2day, she was crying, but was unsure why she was upset. i think she may jsut be a little stressed...shes bin getting awfuil head aches, just started a new job, lotsa skool work, and the absence of a boy frend isnt helping her. it was just one of those days that we all get....where u just feel utterly crap! shes okay now, i managed to cheer her up by talking bout it all, then makiong her laugh with various witty remarks about rabais and taking dumps!
alex is currently at Samaratins training, so im missing him terribly!! tho i will try to finish most of the keane banner 2nite instead. luckily mum chose 2nite to want to use the internet, so i best be off. sorry for the long novel! all my love xXx
thought for this blog: sea-cucumbers smell like wee!

untitled 1 (Keane)

2004-11-09T04:13:00.000Z

hey ppl, i found out 2day that more than 1 person now has my addy for this, so there will be real live ppl (other than alex) readin this.....YAY its made me all excited!!! hi every body!! (tehehe) so if any of you people can be assed, cood u reply or leave a comment so i no whos reading??
sorry i havent blogged for ages!! not much going on really, just work. ive spent quite alot of time with alex, which is always fantastic!!
i started making the keane banner friday..it ses TOM YOU'RE AMAZING....hope he'll see it!!
see now i no more than 1 person is readin i feel like a twat and im all nervous!!
well i have 4 frees 2morro, 2 of which are with alex, and im just so happy rite now i cant wait to wake up 2morro!!
i thought itd be cool to have a thought fot the day thing on here like they do at skool, so if i can think of ne ill put one on each blog and share my lack of wisdom!! but bye for now xXx
Thought for this blog: snails smell like fish when they get wet

Your Eyes Open (Keane)

2004-11-04T13:03:00.000Z

hey, fun day 2day, had only one lesson, and hours and hours with alex. we even snuck off for sum alone time this afternoon ;) now about to start making the banner for the Keane concert with jenny :) yay!! 10 days by the way! whoo! simpsons starts agen 2morro, so alex is cumin ova to watch it with me.........im sure thats not the only reason, but im not complaining!
betta go, stuff to do love you alex!!!! xXx

falling away

2004-11-02T04:20:00.000Z

hey, after lotsa bother with my other blog, my wonderful bf made this one for me and copied the whole thing from my last blog thingy. my dad was 'sorting' out the comp and fidling with stuff as he loves to do..cant just leave ne thing alone. and sumhow managed to delete my original blog ID....thanx dad.
2day was shit, i just feel crap and weak and powerless and dont no y. it happens evey now and agen. i kept feeling really sick too, but at least im used to that. at least alex was there, even tho he was shattered too! he hadnt shaved and had little sleep, yet still managed to look gorgeous! the fact he hadnt shaved made him look all swav and yummy film star-ish. hes cumin ova 2morro yay! and hes bringin gran turismo and gonna try to kick my ass at it, so thatll be a challenge for me. well im gonna go as i hav nothin left to say lol. ooooooo keane's vid for this is the last time will be shown on B4 7.00am 2morro morning! i wonder whether theyll keep the old vid, or make a new one?? neways tune in! nite xXx

2004-10-30T20:20:00.000Z

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

give me novacaine! (green Day)

hey ppl (person lol)
just got in from work and im shattered!! i hav a really bad head ache which ive had since b4 i went to work! poo!!
alex is out gettin pissed at simons leaving due, i think! hope hes havin fun miss him loads :( well at least im a day closer to friday, when i can see him again, and we're goin out for a meal!! yayness!!
so well thats it really....nothin interestings happened so...well bye x

Monday, October 25, 2004

mountain (Good Charlotte)

hey.....another great weekend:) alex came ova sunday and 2day...yay! but if i dont see him 2morro (which is likely) i wont see him till friday!!! but cool tho coz we're goin out for a meal, kinda our 1st real date, so very excited!! gonna try and get sum of the many essays dun 2morro!
ooooo my piano lesson was sooo cool 2day! i took along the music i hav for bedshaped, by keane, and now i can play the whole intro to the song...its amazing it makes me feel so happy and excited to play it. my teacher ses that within a few months ill be able to play it the whole way through and sing at the same time!!! o man how cool!!
aww miss alex
have funs byesey xXx

Saturday, October 23, 2004

ghost of you (Good Charlotte)

well im all alone agen :( alex has gone to bed early coz hes exhausted
then, my sis ame online and we talked for a while...she went to uni a few weeks ago. i miss her so much. then she went too...so feeling a bit sad really and i hav to go to work 2morro too!! o pants
but at least alex is cumin ova afta i finish...summit to look forward to!
well im gonna go.....mite try and bond with the parents a bit. nite x

somewhere only we know!! (Keane)

hey, well i had the most amazing day of my life so far yesterday! i spent the whole day from 9.00am friday till 5.30am saturday with alex. it was perfect so im all happy, but missing him very much now!
my mum is gonna be on the comp doing work for the weekend, so might not be on msn, but will be on wen eva i hav the chance (like now, shes eating lunch tehe)
mmmm watched the stargate episode from 2 weeks ago...brilliant, one of the best i think! i was mezmorised for the hour....fantastic!
ne way.......3 weeks 2morro till i see keane! still dont no whos goin with me though
right im off, mums dun and i hav a date with my ps2! byes xXx

Thursday, October 21, 2004

night alone (Mest)

right now listening to MEST- yayness!!
alex is doin his shark/dolphin rambling style on joel, him and sum guys in a pub or sumthing?? and now elijah wood's involved...o and benji too! weird
any ways...had a great day 2day. for sum reason i was really hyper so was bouncing around and talking alot.
alex had bout 3 hrs sleep last nite coz he was playing enter the matrix that i lent him lol. so in lesson 5, i gave him a bak massage and he fell fast alseep for about 10 min! bless him! he is soooo adorable wen hes asleep! hes cumin ova for a whole day 2morro as we're not at skool. tehehe!
tehehe mum thought we were at skool 2morro, so gave her a real shock wen i sed slex was cumin ova 2morro....she was so confused..i wooda hugged her but she was driving at the time
o.....just realised the only person that noes bout my blogging thing is alex...so really im just riting to him. hmm i need to pass this address to more ppl!!
any way....bye x

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

b4 work!

hey, thought i shood update quickley! im just about to go to work [whoop-de-doo :( ]
spent another wonderful evening with alex last nite. every second i spend with him makes me love him more! hes amazing.
25 days till keane !! yes!!!
got my new MEST cd yesterday also, which was quite exciting...its really gd!!
looking forward to tomorrow as i have a double free with alex :) tehe!
ne ways, now bout to leave....byes!

Monday, October 18, 2004

A new beginning (Good Charlotte)

well, wot to write? this is totally new to me, neva had ne thing on the internet!

i am currently listening to G.C's new album (WHOOO!) and talking to my wonderful boyfriend, alex. was extactically happy last night, as i realised it is just 4 weeks untill i go and see Keane in concert!! im so excited, i think i may cry! which reminds me, i still have to make my banner! tehehe.
id really love to go to a Good Charlotte concert, but i fear i may actually be killed! im sure itll be worth it tho!
anyway as theres absolutely nothing to say, ill go....x

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